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Post by samina on Feb 26, 2006 18:36:00 GMT
Ok... am finally ready to sit and pull my thoughts together on this return. It's been 3 days since the return was exact and this is the first chance I've had to sit and focus on more interior business -- I have been so active! Which I see as directly related to the return. I haven't been busy-busy active... it's more like I've been putting out so much creative energy, mostly through dancing, that then I need time to recuperate, and then it's time to put it out again. Sitting down at the computer has had zero appeal. What strikes me most significantly about my Mars return is that the driving guts of my natal chart sit squarely on the ASC-DSC axis. My natal Uranus conj Pluto, opposing Saturn & squaring Mars, has always felt like the engine that drives my chart. It's a very complex configuration because three of the planets sit on house cusps and definitely take on a flavor of two houses each, so there's a lot going on in the dynamic, to say the least. By transit right now, Uranus is energizing that dynamic -- it's just left a conjunction with Saturn & opposition to Uranus, and is now opposing Pluto. And the natal configuration sits in exactly the same way on both the Solar & Mars returns. So clearly, this aspect of my chart is in very high focus. Now, until recently, the energy represented by these planets was very internal, very interior, exerienced very privately. The experiences & shifts & transformations & challenges were deeply personal and occurred in relative obscurity -- I have not been a public person *at all*, and I have shared relatively little of myself with the outer world. Metabolizing the energy of the challenges inherent in the placement of planets seemed to take up everything I had, and it was as if I lived several lives layered over each other in order to learn & heal as I needed. But then I hit a quiet period of 5-6 years where all that transformation gelled -- in hindsight, it was like being in a cocoon, although I didn't realize it at the time. And now all that interior energy is coming out in a new way, and it feels like it is *supposed* to be visible, *supposed* to be actively directed out into the world in a variety of forms. I truly feel like I am living a new life, where the different bits of creativity & resourcefulness that I have to offer are free to find expression & manifestation, whereas previously in my life I was resolutely tangled & stuck. I feel young & fresh & vibrant now, whereas from a young age I felt so old & serious & encumbered. I'm avoiding specifics here because there's just so much wrapped up in what those planets represent in my chart, but the point I'm making is that all that stuff which I experienced acutely but privately in my chart has now come into high focus to be externalized and *used*. And that's a very exciting thing! In my chart, these planets definitely fuel a lot of creativity & inspiration, as well as healing knowledge & energy, and the ability to see & hear what is commonly hidden, and so those are the general categories of things that now feel they want (NEED) to be thrust out into the world & shared. Mars in Gemini conj the MC of both the Mars & Solar returns says to me that a gateway is wide-open for my actions to have effect & make their mark. And whatever I do, it simply must involve COMMUNICATION. So, writing, publishing, lecturing... definitely on the agenda. But the clever, versatile energy of Gemini also has a kind of light-hearted performing, entertaining quality to it -- the poet, the court musician, the witty humourist, the quick-footed dancer all come to mind -- and I feel that type of energy wanting expression through my Mars, as well. Now this return is coming on the heels of a mutually reinforcing set of transits -- felt most acutely in January -- that involved my natal Jupiter, Mars, and Neptune and my 2nd/8th/5th/10th houses. This coincided with having been laid off from work at the end of December, and I am *still* unemployed, so there is a tremendous amount of *shifting* taking place in my life right now, as if I'm getting re-wired & re-oriented in a new direction. The January transits *definitely* compelled me into a very creative direction -- I decided to go to school to learn music composition, songwriting, and improvisational jazz piano, and I found an excellent school with the perfect program for what I want, and I can do it remotely, from home. In preparation for that, I've been doing some self-study in theory & composition -- learning how to compose music is so profound for me, it's as if the secrets of the universe are being revealed! LOL I've played piano since I was little, but could only play music *others* had created, never what I heard and felt from within. So now I require funding for this venture, and not just the money for the tuition alone, but also for the time that my studying will require. I can't give up dancing, which I started in September -- it has become the fire that ignites everything else, and which set the first domino toppling in this "creative renaissance", as Kim described it back in January. So somehow I need the resourcefulness to find support for music school, and for my dance classes... while I continue to support my family as a single parent. *That's* what I'm challenging my cuspy 8th/9th Mars to bring my way right now! The Sun conj Uranus conj DSC & squaring the Mars conj MC in the Mars return speaks to me of ENERGY, and energy compelling me to be free to be true to myself -- again, something I did so much work on my life. My natal 5th-house Saturn square Mars HID my personal truth so completely, and now that energy feels unstuck & happily channel-able! And because dancing is so higly physical, I LOVE seeing the energy of these squares -- I mean, I'm asking my body to move like a 20-year old, and indeed take ballet & modern dance classes all week with much younger people. I need the energy of Mars moving through my muscles and helping to restore them, as well. Mars/Sun/Uranus here looks like liquid sunshine to me -- heat, warmth, electricity, pure vitality! The DSC position speaks of partnership -- highly significant in that I am so into partnership dancing. I love the merging energy of Pisces on the 7th -- it gives me the sense of creating transcendant beauty through acting as one with another. Whether through dancing or romance or music, that coupled with the electric solar energy of Sun & Uranus looks wonderfully auspicious to me! The Sun & Uranus also sextiling a 4th house Moon speaks to me of the feminine receptivity that is a big theme in my life right now, as well -- in dancing, in relationship, in the creative process. In my Solar return right now, I have an exact Moon/Pluto conjunction in the 4th, opposing the Sun in the 10th, and that has been a very intense experience on many levels. Seeing the Moon in my Mars return having a similar but easier (if still highly energized) channel is validating & comforting. I'm going to be able to settle into this receptive energy in partnership and experience it flowing with the vitality that feels so good. I absolutely adore the synergy of *allowing* and *responding* that occurs when dancing with a man who is leading -- whether it's the creative process or something more romantic, there's so much beauty there. The MR sextile of a 5th house Venus & a 7th house Mercury only reinforces the connection & communication required to make that beauty happen -- again, whether dancing or in a relationship. It seems to me that I'm going to be experiencing this energy on both levels. Venus is sextile Jupiter in the 3rd, which in turn trines back to Mercury, so there's some beautiful chemistry there. I get the image of experiencing a "dream partner" with these placements -- a very active, warm, electric, intuitive, fun, passionate connection with great communication. The Sun/Uranus inconjuct an 11th house Saturn tells me that it's not going to be smooth-sailing as I try to realize these creative & romantic goals. But with MR Pluto opposing my natal Sun/Venus/Mercury (especially Venus), the energy I put into achieving these goals will be transformational. Let's see, what other questions did Kim highlight... Aries, the 8th house, and Mars square Uranus. Yes, well, as much as I have the restraint of Mars square Saturn, I have the thrill-seeking wildness of Mars square Uranus, and having it appear in the MR is in my view WONDERFUL. It reinforces that theme of freedom, and it doesn't bother me that it's a square -- I'm comfortable with the feeling I get of that placement, of crackling energy sparking through the wires. Excitement, exhilaration, being able to express myself with a wilder edge... that's cool with me! Mars ruling my natal 7th house and the MR 8th house speaks to me of more deeply exploring intimacy in a relationship. I know that it doesn't *necessarily* mean of a romantic sort, but I know in my bones that's what it means for me at this time. Bring it on, I say! LOL I've been long-winded here, I know, but you know how complex these things are. I feel that, still, I've only hit things on the surface. I welcome anyone's comments!!! GemStar, I'm looking forward to seeing your return!! Thanks for everyone's ear! samina edit: Oh, one more thing: I just remembered that Uranus is just about to leave it's transit of my natal 5th house... I'll wake up next week on the 3rd with it having moved on to the 6th. I always experience a planet leaving behind a final gift before it moves on after such a long transit. This is just one more layer reinforcing the creative self-expression theme in all these charts... it is an energy pervading everything these days!
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Post by samina on Feb 26, 2006 23:35:42 GMT
Oh, and I forgot to highlight that Eros in Pisces is currently tightly conjunct Uranus, in the 7th on the DSC. Let me amend my statement that Sun/Uranus/Mars is about energy... it's about PASSIONATE energy!
LOL
samina
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Post by samina on Feb 27, 2006 1:08:10 GMT
Whoops... I looked at Kim's return page with its fabulous checklist AFTER posting above, so I didn't break things down according to the checklist. Well, tell ya what... I'm gonna make another pass, following the checklist. Don't mean to overwhelm y'all with so much yammering, but what a great exercise to learn how to interpret these return charts! So, let's see... 1) The pattern. Looks bowl-shaped to me, with Saturn in the 11th being the handle. I like that... shows the ability to focus & contain the energy I'm using. There's definitely a westerly emphasis -- a time when I will be focusing more on acting in relationship with others. 2) The planets are mostly water & mutable, just like in my natal chart which has an overall Pisces signature. I'm very comfortable with that Piscean energy... and the placement of that set of aspects that "drives" my chart is very much about taking that nebulous Piscean/12th house energy and creating a channel for it. The chart is also supported with planets in the other elements & modalities; I don't get the feeling that there's a huge gap. Having Saturn & Pluto both in fire is good for me, as I don't have any fire natally, and the work that I am compelled to do requires a *lot* of fiery energy! Saturn in Leo is very supportive! I don't know where to begin with interpreting the declinations, tho, so I'll leave that out, here. 3) The return Ascendant is Virgo, same as my Solar return ASC. Work. Health. Lifestyle choices. Technique. Analysis. "Pulling it all together". I like Virgo energy -- approaching my goals with a Virgoan manner feels right to me, now. A good balance to all that Pisceanly numinousness. Also, there's a whole other piece of the equation I haven't mentioned... there's a book that I've started and want to finish & self-publish this year and it involves a certain health/dietary habit that, when I incorporated it into my life last year, completely shifted my health, weight, and appearance (Jupiter was, after all, transiting my first house!): I lost a gajillion pounds (went from size 18/20 to a 6, working on carving out a tight 4 right now), and all without "dieting" or getting all complicated about what I ate or did. I want to write this book and introduce the idea of what I've been doing on a large scale because it's so beautiful and simple and powerful. It's no small matter, then, that Virgo -- and my natal Uranus & Pluto -- are sitting on the MR ASC! Another very auspicious placement. That brings my natal 12th house into focus. A doozy. I've brought a lot of energy into my life through that house. I'd say the shorthand for this placement in the MR would be that I'm taking secret knowledge/understanding/resources and projecting them outward visibly. Huh, interesting... my natal Ascendant falls in the 2nd house of the return chart, directly opposite the MR north node. Hmm. Earning my income through a natural assertion of my identity? Since the NN would fall on my natal DSC, I will benefit in some way through the resources of someone else... there's a powerful, transformative relationship connection involved here, that someone increases my sense of self-worth? Could use some help interpreting this one... 4) Signs on the house cusps: Aries on the 8th -- I'm saying this is wanting to start something new in the sexual realm. Believe me... that's it. LOL With my natal 8th-house Mars & Jupiter, I'm pretty clued into the energy of that house & have been all over the place with that one -- manifestation, magic, personal power vs powerlessness, shared resources, intimacy, blah-de-blah. But this time round, it's just S.E.X., baby. Up close & personal. LOL Taurus is on the 9th -- valuing, *studying*, MUSIC and beauty (movement of the body). Absolutely. Gimme two years of studying those two things intensely and I'll be one happy chickadee! Gemini on the MC -- well, having so much Gemini (and a cuspy 3rd house South Node), I've been a learner all my life, big-time. I'd say that, in this case, Gemini here indicates taking my learning and making my mark with it, making it visible in a public way. Cancer on the 11th -- nurturing my dreams; sharing my knowledge with others in a nurturing way. With the health/diet book, I had my first class on the subject in November and there I was in the kitchen, surrounded by a group of women who were fascinated as I helped them learn how to incorporate what I'm doing into their own lives in a way that works for them. Saturn here -- the handle to my bucket -- seems to really emphasis that teaching aspect. And not just sending that energy out... receiving teaching, as well. Big-time. I get the sense that mentors are about to start flocking in... especially with that 5th-house Vertex conjunct Chiron! Leo on the 12th -- Creative inspiration; having fun playing with my muse! Libra on the 2nd -- Valuing beauty, harmony, relationship; making money through these things. Scorpio on the 3rd -- Insightful communications; seeing below the surface -- great for mechanical endeavors, which applies both to music & to dancing. Sadge on the 4th -- A happy home. That's the case already, but -- as a Cancer -- I'll always welcome more expansive support from my home base! With Pluto and Moon in the 4th... well, this reinforces the exact Pluto/Moon conjunction in my current Solar return. A powerful transformation at a foundational level... home, receptivity, femininity, support of all kinds. There's definitely an on-going issue with my mother, who requires a lot of support from me. This placement is profound -- a mouthful. Very spiritual. Sexual, too. Metaphysical... the ability to magnetize support from the universe rather than go out directly and marshal it in. And once again, as with every type of personal chart I've run over the last few months, the man to whom I've been so powerfully attracted in the last 5 months -- his name asteroid is conjunct the MR Moon (trining the Sun/Eros/Uranus conjunction on the DSC). As far as what that means... "whatever". I give up trying to hypothesize. It just "is". Capricorn on the 5th -- working on creative goals. This reinforces the energy of Saturn in Leo and my natal 5th-house Saturn. I'm comfortable with this combination -- building structure so that I'm happy playing in my own way. Have Venus & Chiron/Vertex here is auspicious, I think -- bringing in a whole new wave of happy & healing energy, very different from the heaviness in my natal chart, but with a sense of "reward" about it because I've worked so hard for decades to free that energy up! Aquarius on the 6th -- This mirrors Uranus' movement into my natal 6th house, which will occur in a few days. Shifts in health, work, and lifestyle. Sudden changes; breaking away into new patterns, new habits. 5) Aspects. I like the drive & tension of the squares I mentioned. And I like the flow of the trines & sextiles -- looks like a good marriage of energy. I definitely don't see lack of drive! And I see flow in some very nice and welcome ways. The inconjunct with Saturn looks uncomfortable... ah, well... I have an inconjunct with an 11th house Saturn in my Solar return, as well. It has definitely been uncomfortable. So it goes... 6) The MR planets read as transits in my natal chart: Sun/Eros/Uranus are conjunct my natal Saturn and about to head out into the 6th house. And comes out on the DSC/in the 7th house of the MR chart. That just sounds like everything I've written about above so far... Saturn is at the end of my 10th -- working hard to create my place in the world, to manifest the career that really supports my sense of purpose. Read back to the MR chart -- comes out in the 11th house, working with groups and working with teachers/mentors. Jupiter's in the 2nd, sandwiched between my natal Neptune & Moon, and opposing my 8th-house Jupiter: music, money, movement (dance, moving the body), beauty, the senses... these are all big-time focus right now. Very earthy, very rooted in the physical. The reverse of the first part of my life, which was so metaphysical, spiritual, and focused on healing on the emotional & energetic levels. I love being so rooted in the physical now! But Jupiter here also speaks of using my energy & talents to increase my resources. Definitely a big issue right now, as I'm unemployed & not bringing in the cash right now. This comes out in the MR chart in the 3rd house -- writing, communicating. Interesting. My book. But also studying music composition & songwriting! God, I love the beauty of how these patterns just keep repeating & reinforcing themselves through these charts! The Venus, Chiron, and Vertex all show up in my 4th house, natally -- very personal energy; emotional, private. A deeply meaningful healing. Coming back out into the MR chart throught he 5th house -- my creativity will shine out in a sweet way. That's what I get: sweetness. The energy of happy 4th-house energy is so sweet... personal, and warm, and very touching. Like a beautiful singing voice that makes you want to cry because it's so lovely. Cinderella. Pluto, Moon, and the name asteroid of The Man -- Pluto's is starting to oppose my natal Venus, which is on the GC, from the 3rd house, and it maps back to the MR 4th house. This appears to me as FABULOUS insight and muse energy for songwriting and any kind of creativity, as well as for making a profound & rapid shift with all Venusian pursuits (romance, dancing, music). The Moon and the asteroid straddle my natal IC and map back, again, to the 4th. I can't speak for what The Man's doin' there, but the moon really reinforces The Feminine, on every level. The Moon just keeps showing up in my 4th. I love that energy. So sweet... all defenses come down, very yummy. Comes out a lot when I dance, when the connection is right. They say that only ballet dancers & crabs walk sideways... I bet that most ballet dancers have a strong Cancer/Moon/4th house influence going on in their charts. I never thought about that before I started dancing, but it can be a beautiful outlet for that Cancer energy. 7) And last of all... the nodes. Huh... the North Node is sitting exactly on my natal DSC. I tend to experience people & opportunities, bigtime, when the nodes transit that way. If this is a person, I can't say who it is. The node maps back to the MR 8th house. Hmm. I'd appreciate some help on interpreting this one! And there we have it. Kim -- thanks for that excellent checklist! It really helps to break the return down piece by piece to get a sense of what it's saying. How have I done? Any addiitonal insights you... or any of the rest of you wonderful posters here... are able to add? Great exercise! GemStar, make sure you include that in your eval of your own return chart! Now... let's see how this all pans out over the next couple years! samina
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Post by gemstar on Feb 27, 2006 15:03:19 GMT
WOW samina...your poor little fingers must be nubs with all that writing!! Thank you!! It will give me a great guideline to follow. Kim's checklist is a great exercise to use for guidance as well!! OK...I want to take some time and re-read your two posts and absorb it all into my understanding before I ask fiurther questions. Second, I would like to post my natal and Mars return charts I have in Astro.com yet do not know how. I have heard something about a photo-bucket.....is there a link or thread here somewhere that can help me with this simple thing? It is a task I have been meaning to learn how to do and now I must!! Thirdly, when we review a Mars return, does it represent the energy underlying Mars throughout the year or just at this time in the sign it is transiting? Thanks in advance for your help....I am really excited about understanding return charts! Hugs- GemStar
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Post by samina on Feb 27, 2006 15:30:11 GMT
Thank goodness all the Gemini in my chart makes me a fast typist. LOL Gem, go to www.photobucket.com and create a free account for yourself. Then you can very easily & quickly upload a saved photo of your mars return calculated at www.astro.com. Copy the "Img" link into your post and, voila, we'll be able to see your chart! The return chart is good for the length of time from the time it is exact until the next time the planet returns to its natal position. So, for Mars, roughly two years. Looking forward to looking at your chart with ya! samina
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Post by gemstar on Feb 27, 2006 16:56:39 GMT
THANK YOU SAMINA!!!!!!!! OK...I will get right on that!! I was looking at the photobucket site and didn't know if I needed to shrink down the image or what....let's see what happens.....
Hugs- GemStar
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Post by gemstar on Feb 27, 2006 17:21:33 GMT
Hey...OK.....thank you again for your help...First will be my natal then the Mars return 2006. Hugs-Kathleen
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Post by gemstar on Feb 27, 2006 17:26:27 GMT
Yeeeahhhhh!! I am soooo happy! Ha,ha...I love to learn how to do something new! (Even if I am the last person to learn how!!)
OK....there you have it....a wonderful trine in the Mars return..some Mars challenges.....my areas of interest are my job/money issues (not sure what direction I am supposed to be heading in....Neptune transit squaring natal Neptune is a pain at the moment) and of course, love. Things are looking up in this area too lately!! If you can help me break this down I would most appreciative!! I am hoping this will provide some better idea...I can feel the energy strongly, but also feel scattered as well!!
Thank you...this is a fantastic lesson... Hugs- Kathleen
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Post by lunariviera on Feb 27, 2006 20:22:14 GMT
I have to echo GemStar..."WOW samina!"...that was a phenomenal delineation and you covered a lot of ground...you really have a firm grasp on reading Return Charts and it looks like you did it seamlessly...this is a prime example of how Kim's checklist is absolutely invaluable (especially for a novice like myself)...samina, this book you're working on sounds terrific....sign me up!!! GemStar, you and I have such a similar return chart since our Mars' in Gemini are only a degree apart...our Mars energies will be directed towards similar things (as we follow the same cycle, but I'm sure they will impact us differently according to our natal chart)...it's kind of fun to compare notes and see what people have to say about your chart...I know I'll be watching closely... I'll post my charts for comparison: Natal Mars Return I love all this Mars in Gemini mental gymnastics...
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Post by samina on Feb 28, 2006 16:14:38 GMT
Wow, very interesting -- Gem & Luna, your MR charts are so similar.
Jade, you gonna post yours here, as well? If you have the same house overlays as the other two, it would be very interesting to find and differences and to highlight how the similarities relate differently back to the natal charts.
I don't have time right now to dig into it, but I shall definitely return later. I look forward to reading everyone's musings on their returns...
sami
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Post by gemstar on Feb 28, 2006 19:50:17 GMT
Thanks Jade....I really appreciate insight into the connections for this Mars return!! Samina, you seem to have a great grasp on tying it all together very well...and it will be a huge help from you as well to add your thoughts! I will start at the bottom comments first.....Regarding my natal chart and intuitivity. YES, my intuition is incredibly strong and rarely leads me wrong. In fact, my intuition guides me waaaay before my emotions catch up!! Kinda wierd but my natal Mars sq Uranus and Pluto drives the changes without looking back! Over the past several years, I have found that my psychic senses have become the most fine-tuned they have ever been...or felt. The internal antennae inside of me quivers much more strongly whenever energies are present....all sorts and I am learning to try to shake them off when I absorb too much from others! (The difficult energies....lately, lots more people seem to be coming to me for answers or guidance....) Though my natal 7th house (Ceres 0 Gem) naturally brings caring to many people, it seems more evident than ever! As far as the energy from the Mars return....I can 'feel' it pushing me but not in a particular direction. Changes MUST be around the corner and I have been struggling with my 'old' corporate way of earning a living and being true to my creative desires in occupation. Currently, I AM working with one of my greatest gifts...and natal Aphrodite is located in my 4th! Beautiful Homes!! Because so many people do a traditional job, I have often felt guilty whenever I have so much freedom....and enjoy myself!! That darn Saturn in 5th can really get to me! With a current tr Pluto beginning square to it and natal Chiron, I suppose it is asking me to finally resolve my issues of Sat sq Sun...my overbearing and hyper-critical father who constantly seeks to make my choices 'wrong' somehow. By letting go of my emotional expectations, I am experiencing less stress whenever he puts me down or tries to dominate me by telling me what a mistake I am doing and throwing away my corporate experience (and money). Never mind that I have been quite successful renovating houses in the past as a hobby...I could make $10 million and he would STILL think it was just 'luck!' (Classic chauvanistic father of the 50s-women CAN'T be smarter than men, it MUST be Luck.) So the themes of Money, occupation, home and creativity are at the forefront of my MR. WIth Neptune transiting at the end of 3rd house, it is like having tons of fogginess being swirled around by wind....the energies of the strong wind are being felt but I feel panicky about how I will figure this all out. Kim was helpful in guiding me to simply 'Let Go' and dance with my Neptune....OK, I have worked on that...I have increased my Yoga practice and am letting more go most days.... However, bottom line, with real estate having climbed quite high here in Florida, it is too expensive to buy another home without first selling this one....and I really like my current project!! I made the decision to stay in this house and keep it for the time being.....and maybe might sell next Fall...yet, I still need income before I go through much more savings. Also, I need to be around more people. Having been in sales for many years, this life of working alone seems to suck all my energy and scatter it anywhere it wants to float off! Being a Gemini Sun, I am quite connected to people via the phone and get out to the gym to see my friends a few times a week!! Gotta have that outlet! Neighbors stop by regularly to check in on my project but sometimes I feel that I am not using my people skills more...and should be to earn money no less!! I gain a lot of power being around lots of people....it works well with my leadership skills. Overall, it is a great position to be in but changes are needed. This exercise with my Mars Return is exciting to me because I really like learning and applying that new-found knowledge to uncover more powers! I have a writing project that has been on the back burner for quite some time....my priority is figuring out where to focus!! My focus is overwhelmed at the moment.....What do you think this lunar eclipse and Full Moon on March 14 might bring to these houses? I see that the MR Juno, Eros and Pluto/PF will be aspected directly during this eclipse. Would you bother to include these or not? When crossing over between the natal houses and MR houses, I am not sure how to read it (meaning viewing Aries 2nd house MR to Aries 5th house natal) AND I am not as adept at integrating the opposition and squares energy...I want to view it positively and work with it! So the BIG question is....how do I focus on 4th, 5th, 8th, 10th all together? How does this Aries ASC in the MR direct me? Natally, I do not have much fire in my chart and really need it! What do I do with it? All of my air and water want to blow it out or wash it away!! Ha,ha.....sorta like the sizzle of steam!! SSSssss........ Any thoughts? And of course, I will re-read everyone's info...incl Samina's chart to see the ties and piece it together for my Mars Return. Thank you as always everyone! Hugs- GemStar
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Post by gemstar on Mar 1, 2006 14:19:53 GMT
Thank You Jade! All of this is so much information that I am sure to be back with further comments! Over the past 4 years, my identity was obliterated and wiped out. Everything that I identified with was transformed...marriage, big home, corporate job....money decreased (Tr Pluto into 2nd...thanks buddy..Grrrr....). I even was moved to a new town for my job before that left. So, Life has been setting me on a new path for some time. I took the leap and have lived more creatively by working full-time utilizing my one of my greatest gifts...Home Design, color, Renovating ugly into beautiful. I can bring a run down home up to it's full potential with ease! However, it takes a lot of money and energy and somehow I have felt burnt-out. This is why I had mentioned the lack of people-contact being tough on me. Much energy comes from giving energy out to others as it comes back to me two-fold. Odd how that works! The strange thing of late, is that soooooo many people keep mentioning to me that I should become a Psychologist. A counseler or even a minister! (Yikes...I am Catholic and though I do not agree with the Church and their views re-women, no thanks!) The right insight seems to come to mind and for whatever reasons, people really take what I have to say seriously when it comes to ideas for their life challenges. Truthfully, I really enjoy helping others find their internal strengths and that is a huge part of the book series idea I have been developing. Lots of people keep pushing me with my unique ideas on that front...but the creative genius seems to have departed in me! I do not know if this is where I am being led to. Interesting note though....a job channel in cable for this area posted a need for School Counselers.....with training available. It actually caught my eye! I LOVE children/teens and really connect with their issues. Recently I have come to terms that I most likely will not be a biological mother and needed to find peace in letting this dream go. Instead, I connected deeper inside to recognize when in Life I was called to be a Mother (younger years-- caring for my three younger brothers) and that it may have partially fulfilled this need....just differently than I expected. An additional insight came to me last year...perhaps I am meant to love MANY, MANY children on a more Universal level as my own. How many kids have parents who do not connect with them?...they are present but unconnected and unsupportive!! Now THAT is something I understand very well!! So I began to look at myself as a vessel of giving, caring and supporting the 'child' in others. Adults or children. Really connecting and being present to hold their virtual hands and listen to their fears etc...... And so, at times I feel I run a free Hotline here at home!! And I am careful about overly-clingy people/friends and do not feel it has gotten out of hand. The main concern I have is that I seem to 'absorb' their emotions. I 'feel' their angst or pain and allow it to invade me too deeply. Even if someone does not tell me exactly what is happening...(a facade in place), I can sense a disquiet. It often throws me off-balance for a day. So...I do more yoga or lose myself in playing my piano for balance and peace. Part of this 'new identity' idea is that I not only enjoy what I do, I feel that I want to be PROUD of my job as well. Renovating homes is something I am really, really proud of doing....and nearly every person tells me that they secretly wish they could have the guts to take my plunge! I smile and tell them that it is possible but not as easy as it looks on the outside! They never see me sweat at night when I wonder if I should sell or not sell. Ha,ha... This is the first time I have really wanted to keep a house when completed! It is a great street with $4 mil houses 5 yds/metres across from me--PLUS, I need to live somewhere!! Usually I am pretty detached with each project...and work at every one with the love in which I would care for my own! Once the check is written, I am cheerfully on to the next house!! However, I think with SO MUCH change over that past 4 years, suddenly I needed to settle and stay with 'my' home. Be settled for the moment and relax with the fruits of my efforts. BUT, most of my funds have gone into this project....and my income needs are now my focus. No sell-y the house-y = no money!! Ha,ha...you get the picture!! So...back to the task at hand. Aries...new beginnings....new identity...yes, this feels about right! Something is ready to change....(**she sings...'Which way do I go, which way do I go"...**) Fire is really missing for me....scattered with energy is a way of being with me that does need a boot in the butt to shape it all! I am a pretty high energy and positive person...but give it all out everywhere!! (Except myself at times.) I like to focus on other people and their needs....I like to care for them! (Ceres in 7th) How do I harness this Aries? This Fire Grand Trine in the MR? Do I start throwing things up at the wall and see what sticks? I am not usually that type of gal...I think things through pretty thoroughly. How do you use your Aries energy? How do I incorporate it with all my Air and Water? Once again...thank you to everyone who offers ideas on a Mars return. I think it is cool that several of us have it going on at the same time and I am looking forward to seeing how it manifests in each person's life. I realy like that you are walking me through the different aspects and helping me focus on the issues that seem important!! Hopefully this will be the insight that sheds light upon the areas that I need to become more grounded and confident about!! Alrighty...back to the ASTROLOGY!! So sorry that I felt the need to give that background! It hopefully will help us figure out how to use the Mars Return energies best!! Many Hugs... GemStar
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Post by samina on Mar 1, 2006 16:41:39 GMT
And Gem, with Jupiter transiting your first house right now, the world is your oyster, so-to-speak... whatever new direction you want to go in, Jupiter is completely reinforcing the Aries ASC energy of your MR! With Pluto in your MR 9th, your jam-packed MR 12th house and your MR Venus & Neptune in the 11th & mapping back to your natal 3rd, I'm getting school... studying something related to the inner world or spirituality, or relationships. You have such a well-placed Venus for counseling, plus all your Cancer. And your MR Moon in the 8th gives insightfulness, the ability to see below the surface, a great asset for counseling endeavors of all kinds. Also, with quintiles being on my mind from the other thread, I checked your MR chart & you have Moon Q Venus, which I imagine describes an open channel for nurturing & counseling, especially in groups with that 11th house MR Venus. Perhaps that's a talent particularly available to you while this MR is active. I'm also not surprised that you're feeling like settling down in the house you just pulled together -- although you have Uranus transiting your 4th (so much change & renovation), your MR Saturn there would be telling you to stabilize your energy, build a home base for yourself. It's like when Saturn transits there -- people start families, buy houses, find some way to stay put or to stabilize their foundation somehow. Exciting times ahead for you, Gem! If you have your survival needs covered by savings, you clearly have a lot of energy available to you -- I get the impression that doors will open wide to you with new opportunities as you reach into whatever new direction feels right for you! samina
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Post by gemstar on Mar 1, 2006 18:14:04 GMT
Hi Samina!
Thanks for your insights! My studies of late have been mostly in the areas of spirituality...astrology and delving deeper into the realms I have not visited. Every day I search out new meanings and understandings for aspects...transits...and now returns! My collegiate education degree is BS in Health Sciences . I worked in medicine for nearly 15 years...and have also worked as a Financial Advisor. Anything involving people works well for me! The creative part was calling to me to do more of it as I actually have made my most money working with this gift!! (Made more than my corporate sales job-and it was cushy!)
The jam-packed MR 12th is mysterious to me. I have not studied the 12th at all since I do not have much going on there natally. (Like nothing!!) I worried about how to read this 12h MR to the natal 3h....you came up with studying...hmmmm. Maybe I thought that was more 9h but I didn't understand how you came up with that one...and the Sun placement in the MR 12h is still puzzling to me!
In the MR, you pointed out Moon Q Venus... I natally have 7h Venus sextile 9h Moon so it further supports my natal theme. 11th house (groups) with MR Venus is interesting to note. In the depths of my mind, I have been wishing to get in front of groups again and do more inspirational or motivational types of teaching or something. Perhaps 'speaking' opportunities...I dunno. It is a fantasy in the back of my mind more than anything. I keep visualizing this for some reason. Traveling a bit and speaking to groups. I even thought about being a realtor but they are having a rough go of it at the moment....not sure on that one!
With regard to Jupiter transiting my natal 1st house, it was one of my best years ever 12 years ago....so good changes seem par for the course this year! Perhaps I get too bogged down with this knowledge and freak myself out that I may waste this time somehow!! Silly maybe, but may also be tied into a natal 5h Saturn conj Chiron...fear of success and worrying too much about approval from others. A toughie for me and may also be part of the tr Pluto sq to this point. Gotta get rid of that habit somehow!!
Great point about MR Saturn in the 4th!! I had struggled for the last year about finishing this project and stalled a portion of it. Somehow I couldn't grasp what my delay was about! Selling this one didn't 'feel' right. Then, maybe a month or so ago, it came to me that it was OK if I kept this home!! That I did not necessarily have to sell it because I 'told everyone this was how I was going to make money etc...' Once I realized that I would be happiest NOT selling, I felt tons better!! So, with that feeling of being more settled home-wise for the moment, the next hurdle is the income part. I have lived on my savings for the past three years...so income is clearly a necessity!! Easy street is not lined with money trees!! Ha,ha....
Since I will not be accessing the profits from this project for however long, I am pushing myself to find a new direction for my income. By nature, I have always been a go-getter but after my world was obliterated, my soul and spirit needed a rest. My internal desires to do a lot were present but I had no energy to follow through. It really bothered me a lot...I have always over-achieved and suddenly, everything was gone..I was depleted of everything...mind, soul and body!! A forced slow-down of sorts led me into the journey of Me and paying attention to what I can do in a more spiritual manner in Life!! Perhaps that rest has served it's purpose and I am being directed to reconnect with my 'now re-plenished' natural energy...and this MR will give me the spark to move onward!
My survival needs are covered for a little bit but I feel guilty that I have already spent so much 'surviving' on my project. Funding it myself and also paying everyday bills have really used a lot of savings. Financial suicide perhaps yet the investment value is pretty solid...though not tangible per se. So.....can't pay the bills with my good looks so need to find the best outlet to bring in the money!! Any of you who have had tr Pluto move from the 1st house to the 2nd will know that the transformation is a difficult one...and Pluto is doing his job of forcing me to find new ways to earn money!! With tr Saturn at the top pf my 9th and almost MC, I worry that I have neglected something and my 'heights' of career are nowhere to be found!! EEKS!!
My lifestyle has changed drastically so I can manage pretty well on less...but do not want to get desperate! So....the search for direction is upon me in a HUGE way!! Interesting that this MR may be the energy that pushes me!! How fabulous to discover it at this time!!! Imagine that I was not even exploring returns until lately....wow.
Now if I can 'feel' my way along using this MR, I will be thrilled!! Back to astrology...
Hugs- GemStar
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Post by samina on Mar 3, 2006 15:15:32 GMT
I get the same feeling you do... that you've had a profound rest period and that you're ready for action again! I know in my own life, I do my best work when I give myself permission to not worry or feel guilty and instead cultivate a feeling of safety and that everything is absolutely perfect, as it should be. Then, nothing is pulling my energy down or contradicting the movement forward I'm trying to make. Makes waking up each day so exciting because of the feeling that destiny is working in harmony with my efforts! Getting into real estate seems like a logical thing for you. There's a lot of opportunity in real estate, I think, for motivational work, too -- that's what I hear. I don't have any personal experience in that field, but I know a lot of friends who have gone that route. I think there are motivational-speaking companies that probably specialize in the real estate industry, too. Maybe you could even get into lecturing to people on how to do what *you've* done in the past, with taking properties & turning them over into nice profits! Lots of people are into that. And especially in Florida right now, with the real estate biz really starting to go through the roof. You could counsel & advise on something that you know so well. Maybe write a little booklet about that? That's 3rd house activity. Then you could sell the booklet at workshops that you host at local community centers & schools... Just brainstorming. The 3rd house is definitely about learning as much as it is about communication. It's about being so curious about something that you want to gather information about it -- "what is this, and what is that?", or about passing that type of info on to others. Third-house energy labels things, identifies patterns, communicates ideas. Having a transit-activated 3rd house can be a very active time for expanding one's world-view, or helping to expand the world-view of others. Whereas the 9th house is more concerned with meaning & application -- "what is the meaning of this, why does this work that way, how can I apply this truth to my own life?" Ninth-house energy is more motivated to understand a more universal or cosmic significance of those patterns & ideas. Even though you're changing careers right now with Saturn about to hit your MC, that's not a problem at all... you're just continuing to build on expertise & knowledge & accomplishments that you've forged in the past. It doesn't matter if the *form* is different... the essential bones of who you are & what you have done & have to offer is essentially "you"! It's about how you use that to crystallize you're place in the world. You have a very exciting time ahead, Gem! Don't worry... good stuff is coming together, with just the right timing. samina
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