Post by tom on Jul 3, 2009 19:29:18 GMT
hi all,
i've been working with this aspect for while, but recently started my 2nd master cleanse and realized it's relevant. also with ceres transiting alongside saturn in virgo now. ceres is in the 12th and saturn's at the cusp, squaring natal saturn-vesta in gemini/9th.
the main reason for doing it is to give up certain beliefs and attitudes from the past (that are not healthy) that co-exist with ones i've developed (that are healthy). there's a lot of familial "programming" i picked up about food and health that i know i can't proceed where i want to go if i continue to carry. i started having memories of food experiences from my childhood, too, as in remembering looking at my plate or food as i ate, so decided to put some distance between them and where i'm headed now. that's kind of surreal and kind of fun, to actually remember random meals from random times, but i think they're coming up for me to figure out how to work with feelings associated with those times.
today is day 6 of the cleanse. i did it for 10 days (the recommended duration) 5 years ago, but with a different attitude ("hmm, what would that be like?") and not so much of an intention. this time is very different! it's possible i may go longer this time, too, but if my body says to stop, i will.
i'm also having so much unconscious stuff (12th hs!!) come up, old feelings about all kinds of things. and taking a lot of time to be quiet and process them. i'm still working full-time but seeing fewer clients for a couple of weeks to give that extra time.
the full moon this week is my late father's birthday - sun on my MC/SN, moon on my IC. kind of appropriate as i work saturn in the 12th! his relationship with food ultimately had a lot to do with his death, which i've been beginning to grieve on deeper levels. actually, i've been greiving how he treated himself more than his death, now that i think of it.
i've been working with this aspect for while, but recently started my 2nd master cleanse and realized it's relevant. also with ceres transiting alongside saturn in virgo now. ceres is in the 12th and saturn's at the cusp, squaring natal saturn-vesta in gemini/9th.
the main reason for doing it is to give up certain beliefs and attitudes from the past (that are not healthy) that co-exist with ones i've developed (that are healthy). there's a lot of familial "programming" i picked up about food and health that i know i can't proceed where i want to go if i continue to carry. i started having memories of food experiences from my childhood, too, as in remembering looking at my plate or food as i ate, so decided to put some distance between them and where i'm headed now. that's kind of surreal and kind of fun, to actually remember random meals from random times, but i think they're coming up for me to figure out how to work with feelings associated with those times.
today is day 6 of the cleanse. i did it for 10 days (the recommended duration) 5 years ago, but with a different attitude ("hmm, what would that be like?") and not so much of an intention. this time is very different! it's possible i may go longer this time, too, but if my body says to stop, i will.
i'm also having so much unconscious stuff (12th hs!!) come up, old feelings about all kinds of things. and taking a lot of time to be quiet and process them. i'm still working full-time but seeing fewer clients for a couple of weeks to give that extra time.
the full moon this week is my late father's birthday - sun on my MC/SN, moon on my IC. kind of appropriate as i work saturn in the 12th! his relationship with food ultimately had a lot to do with his death, which i've been beginning to grieve on deeper levels. actually, i've been greiving how he treated himself more than his death, now that i think of it.