Post by ariesmoon on Apr 5, 2009 9:59:19 GMT
How do I know that I've now rectified my chart to the right ascendant? Because Neptune is squaring it (and my descendant) and I'm feeling it!
I'd thought I was a Gemini AC based on what my mum told me about my birthtime, and now know that was too late. My AC is 25-26 Taurus. Neptune is currently at 25-26 Aquarius, squaring the AC from my 10th house and I can attribute what's happening to me, to that influence.
I started a new part-time job in January, loved it straight away, got straight into it, love the people I meet and the people I work with. Got offered full time very quickly and took it. Couldn't believe my luck.
Now I've had a crash - realism has set in. I still love the job and love the people, but I'm also realising it's exhausting mentally and emotionally, and I'm going to have to find strategies for managing that. Derek & Julia Parker put it perfectly - when I read this it made perfect sense - it's as if I've shot up to cloud nine (Neptune) in my career (10th) far too quickly, and have deceived myself that it's all perfect. It's not, and it's time to take off the rose-tinted glasses.
What happened this week, on two occasions, was that I began to feel transparent - as if I had no boundaries, no skin. I'm in a public reception area and I have never felt so vulnerable. And I've kind of lost "me" - I come home and I don't DO anything - I don't read, paint, play music, even wash breakfast and dinner dishes. I just sit. That's a real telling thing for me. I'm not the world's best housekeeper but I do, usually, keep it together. And I love to create and to read others' creations, and can't.
I've quite simply let the job, and the people I meet, absorb me - some have serious problems, challenges with children, or domestic violence, or isolation. I can sense the job and the people sucking out my energies, leaving me feeling like a lace curtain blowing in the breeze - delicate, insubstantial, full of holes, ungrounded. And for a Taurus AC who's just discovering how much she likes to be in her body (Neptune has squared Taurus Mars which ramped up the fantasies no end!) this feeling is weird and disconcerting.
So,how to respond? Well, I've done the first step - recognising what's happening. I've got a holiday booked - by the sea as it happens - so I'll spend some time reflecting on strong positive Neptune energies, and detaching physically from the building and the people. That's healthy. Then I'll see if I can't use my strong Mercury/Saturn trine to come up with some practical solutions, like changing my hours, insisting on more frequent breaks. And on a spiritual level, practising rigidly techniques of psychic protection so that I deflect negative energies from others.
The job isn't going to change, but I'm going to need to change the way I approach it when I return. It's a gift that this has happened just before a holiday break! And it's a gift too that I have this awareness of the transit.
Just wait until 23rd May, when there's a Neptune/Jupiter/Chiron conjunction all squaring my ascendant/descendant axis. I'm going to need to be ready for that one!
I'd thought I was a Gemini AC based on what my mum told me about my birthtime, and now know that was too late. My AC is 25-26 Taurus. Neptune is currently at 25-26 Aquarius, squaring the AC from my 10th house and I can attribute what's happening to me, to that influence.
I started a new part-time job in January, loved it straight away, got straight into it, love the people I meet and the people I work with. Got offered full time very quickly and took it. Couldn't believe my luck.
Now I've had a crash - realism has set in. I still love the job and love the people, but I'm also realising it's exhausting mentally and emotionally, and I'm going to have to find strategies for managing that. Derek & Julia Parker put it perfectly - when I read this it made perfect sense - it's as if I've shot up to cloud nine (Neptune) in my career (10th) far too quickly, and have deceived myself that it's all perfect. It's not, and it's time to take off the rose-tinted glasses.
What happened this week, on two occasions, was that I began to feel transparent - as if I had no boundaries, no skin. I'm in a public reception area and I have never felt so vulnerable. And I've kind of lost "me" - I come home and I don't DO anything - I don't read, paint, play music, even wash breakfast and dinner dishes. I just sit. That's a real telling thing for me. I'm not the world's best housekeeper but I do, usually, keep it together. And I love to create and to read others' creations, and can't.
I've quite simply let the job, and the people I meet, absorb me - some have serious problems, challenges with children, or domestic violence, or isolation. I can sense the job and the people sucking out my energies, leaving me feeling like a lace curtain blowing in the breeze - delicate, insubstantial, full of holes, ungrounded. And for a Taurus AC who's just discovering how much she likes to be in her body (Neptune has squared Taurus Mars which ramped up the fantasies no end!) this feeling is weird and disconcerting.
So,how to respond? Well, I've done the first step - recognising what's happening. I've got a holiday booked - by the sea as it happens - so I'll spend some time reflecting on strong positive Neptune energies, and detaching physically from the building and the people. That's healthy. Then I'll see if I can't use my strong Mercury/Saturn trine to come up with some practical solutions, like changing my hours, insisting on more frequent breaks. And on a spiritual level, practising rigidly techniques of psychic protection so that I deflect negative energies from others.
The job isn't going to change, but I'm going to need to change the way I approach it when I return. It's a gift that this has happened just before a holiday break! And it's a gift too that I have this awareness of the transit.
Just wait until 23rd May, when there's a Neptune/Jupiter/Chiron conjunction all squaring my ascendant/descendant axis. I'm going to need to be ready for that one!