A Plutonian Christmas

[ariesmoon]

Hi everyone and it's great to be back on the forum after 2 weeks away from my computer. I hope everyone's fostering positive thoughts for the New Year!

I seem to have had Christmas with Pluto, and I don't mean the cartoon dog!

Without going into too much detail it's been characterised by:

a total and I think permanent transformation of family circumstances due to illness, with accompanying fear and guilt - some very dark stuff coming to the surface;

significant power shifts in the family;

a raw honesty and openness between my mum and I about deeply personal subjects, more than I can ever remember. It feels like years of bottled up emotion came out over the last 2 weeks and our relationship feels much healthier for it!

urinary infections - 2 of us over Christmas.

It's been and continues to be an emotional rollercoaster for me, I'm torn between being the youngest daughter supporting her parents (my brother is away visiting my sister on the other side of the world), and the passionate, sensual adult I know I am. I know it's perfectly possible to be both, but at the moment it seems be either/or. I'm definitely in a place where I'm learning to accommodate deeper passions in my life.

It's as if tectonic plates have been shifting under the family home - this has been happening for several months, but has peaked this Christmas. With both my mother and I being Cancerian, and my father being a Capricorn, it's hardly surprising. Everything around family and parenting is affected. All of us are seeing a seismic shift in family circumstances which is transforming our view of ourselves, and of each other. My mother in particular is finding a strength, resilience and confidence I always knew she possessed but which she never gave herself credit for. My parents are of the Pluto in Cancer generation (my mother has it conjunct her Sun/North Node in Cancer).

As always with Pluto - resistance is useless!!

[Kim Falconer]

Ariesmoon, what a powerful Pluto experience! I like the way your described the tectonic plates have been shifting under the family home! It's intense but it also seems like a lot of pressure has been relieved. Getting those bottled up emotions OUT is so refreshing!

As with anything in life, what we resist persists. Amazing what a little let go can do.

[airedale]

Hi Ariesmoon,

It’s nice to see you back! Aging parents, illness, changing family roles – these things can evoke very powerful experiences. You are right, resistance is futile. Experience it, role with each seismic shift, and you will take new found strengths and insights forward with you. I suspect, when you look back on this time, you will find that events are unfolding just exactly as you need them to. Peace & strength.

[ariesmoon]

Thank you airedale, you're right, it's already happening. I'm already finding new strengths - I said to my mum yesterday that I had discovered things about myself in the last few weeks. And I also said that I felt I was being prepared for something, or someone. I'm a nurterer and protector, something I'd found hard to accept in myself, wanting to rationalise it all away. It just clicked in, I took over! But I'm also learning when to step back. And I've learned about deep love and loyalty, and and the sacrifices that often come with them.

My mum said something lovely about me seeing "the minutiae of love and marriage" - very appropriate for me having a Saturn in Virgo transit in the 5th! There is a definite Saturn connection too here, with Saturn transiting my 5th and trining 12th house Mars in Taurus and my Taurus ascendant. Mars there likes to take action in a loving and practical way, behind the scenes, which is exactly what happened at home.

[ariesmoon]

It's also my nodal half-return too - exact yesterday - which means it's also hitting the Saturn/Venus opposition. So that's all part of the process, particularly the lessons about deep love and loyalty. Given that my North Node is in the 4th conjunct Venus, it's entirely appropriate that I've spent so much time nurturing and protecting in the last few weeks!

[Aphrodite]

Hey Ariesmoon, I missed you! Welcome back! I thought you were probably away doing something important and you didn't disappoint. Was sending you good thoughts and energy. Hope it helped!

Aphrodite

[ariesmoon]

Hi Aphrodite, it's great to be missed! Thank you so much for the positive thoughts, I'm sure they helped, it was tough at times (and not just for me). And the Universe responded by sending my mum some wonderful help in the form of gentle, loving, caring women to help look after my dad, people we would not have known were it not for his illness. For all the fear and frustration, there has been and continues to be a great deal of love surrounding the family.

Looking at Pluto's position now, it's moving ever closer (2 degrees) to an opposition with my natal Cancerian Sun, so none of this is surprising. Stripping away old patterns of suppressing emotions, and open discussion of "taboo" subjects, is definitely part of a Pluto/Sun opposition!