a learning example; question about an audition.

[svenskasfinx]

As most of the forum knows, perhaps all too much, I had a recent bout of "less than pleasing" experiences in the last few months starting from October.

Things are in fact starting to look up, as I have been realitively healthier since my last bout of illness in Feb-March. Now this is the cool thing, in March I found out where and when the program Idol was holding their auditions, and decided by that time, I should at least Try, as just doing this would give me a REASON to practice singing, and to improve upon the skills that have been deminishing due to illness.



I went to the audtion BASED upon my recent experience AND this Chart (as above).

What I mostly enjoyed was looking at the Sabian Symbols, the ASC ruler, the Sun (that already sound good), in Aries (its dignity) in the 10th house, just sounded too good to be true! The symbol for the 9th degree (reminding me of my own natal solar degree in Cancer) was "a crystal ball gazer".. then the image of myself in mind, Me, high up looking at a crystal ball.. because its something I had been thinking long and hard about as a "wish" present, if I wanted ANYTHING in the world, matterialisticly for "fun" I wanted a natural quartz crystal ball..

It was this image that would come back to the audition as the word in Swedish "Spådam" evokes a crystal gazer to the mind.. even though one doesn't "Spå" with just crystal balls.. but I Ching, Horary, and Tarot, ect.

I think when they saw that word, it brought me forward, something different, something curious.. in my own element, as I was treated so nicely by so many young people in the cue.. without them knowing me in any other form than a "singer"...it feels good when people under 18 can tell you good things because most of the youth are built in without the politeness we end up developing NOT to hurt people.. it was really great to see how they reacted. But it wasn't them who made the final choice, but they helped me really practice and be bold while just waiting in the cue..I think they were great!!

It was a good experience. Now I go on to delay some family activities because I have to be somewhere in connection to this on a day we will be going on a car trip. I cried on the way home because I was afraid someone was going to say, "no you can't do this, as I only thought it was going to be one day..." but it didn't work that way..

Funny thing was I was really crying it out!!! I couldn't stop.. "oh" I thought, "if there is ANY chance at going farther.. I will be stopped, not by a lack of chance but what I am expected to be at home.." but it was resolved, and I feel really good. I guess it was a positive experience to go.

With Jupiter in the 5th house in its ruling sign (Sag), and with Venus in the 11th house, in its ruling sign (Taurus).. and with the Part of Fortune in Sag, in the 5th house conjunct the vertex, it feels like the positive potential of fate will be an interactive factor for the time of this audition sesion... and I feel techincally that this next step is just a part of the initial auditioning process so this chart feels as though it is still aplicable.

Uranus and the Lunar North node are in conjunction in the 9th, and squared to the conjunction of the Vertex and Part of Fortune.. it feels like a chore, perhaps a struggle.. but its exciting, huh? I would think that the Sun is applying in aspect, via Trine to Vesta, Part of Fortune, Vertex, and Jupiter, however the Moon is over that, makes an opposition to Mars and then a trine to Pluto, so events in the timing seem stressful. Even a good aspect to Pluto often feels conflicted in its operation, as it feels as though its final task is to TRANSFORM.

Finally the aspect between Jupiter as a co-ruler to Saturn is a Trine, which somehow feels "healing" as Saturn is the ruler of the Sixth house of this Chart, not particularly comforting for someone who's health has been very bad recently... but the expressing of 10th and 5th house (interception) energies seem to represent healing via the expression of tallent, (Saturn in the 2nd House), But also emphisized by Moon in the Second House, in aspect to the 5th house ruler, (Pluto) but also Mars (by opposition).. the moon is the ruler of the 12th house, so it feels rather pschological, but then again sometimes the expression of something deeper can actually remove energies which are working against one.. just an idea.

This is how I see it..

We see also Mercury, although in Pisces is about to Sextile Venus, and about to conjunct Uranus and finally North Node, but because Mercury is only given rulership over 3rd and 4th house, I wonder exactly how that is going to express itself.. (my communcations? my deeper home life?). My communication skills in Swedish seem slightly impressive, but I can't always get things out "correctly"... Uranus can also represent my partner's tallents and himself.

Anyway I'm going to practice more for the next stage, although my practice time is limited. I have yet to even sing for my partner.. if you can believe it! Perhaps I don't want the critique and self conciousness which takes away self esteme?

Thanks for commentary ahead of time,

sorry I haven't been around, but hopefully this was good news..and know I've been "out there" doing things.

be well all!

Svenskasfinx:)

[AquarianEssence]

Oh Svenskasfinx, I'm so proud of and excited for you. Congratulations on taking such a big step and not letting "duty" keep you from doing something for yourself. It's hard, I know. So the Universe just worked it out for you. Cool. I didn't realize there was any other idol other than the American Idol. My son just informed me otherwise. Give us all the details. And so glad your health is better.

[svenskasfinx]

aquarianessence said:

Oh Svenskasfinx, I'm so proud of and excited for you. Congratulations on taking such a big step and not letting "duty" keep you from doing something for yourself. It's hard, I know. So the Universe just worked it out for you. Cool. I didn't realize there was any other idol other than the American Idol. My son just informed me otherwise. Give us all the details. And so glad your health is better.

Health wise I've been a bit shakey and have been making certain I don't overdo anything. "To bed with me early", has been my recent motto.

Strange you should mention the idea about American Idol, as I didn't know it even existed until they changed the name of the Swedish program to "Idol", as before it was called "Pop Stars"... and the concept like many other programs they do internationally, was, as far as I know Swedish; we got all started in talking about it in the cue.. the younger people knew it was an idea that started here. I never lived in America when there was "Idol" there. We get that here though now; funny thing is the girls who were in the line ahead of me had the same opinion about it being much too "way over the top" in America than in Sweden, they look for different things and what passes as "pop music" here may be considered "too different" there.

I figure with bands like "Kent", "Whale", "Sahara Hotnights" and "The Strokes" considered pop music here, I have a good chance of being closer to what they may look for.. something a bit more "inovative".

The next date I go see them I looked it up, and transiting Venus is conjunct my natal Sun at 9 degrees Cancer. The degree of my Sun is also the degree of the North Node of Jupter (don't get it confused with the North node of the moon, as planets also have "nodes"); this is the exact degree of my Mars/Venus midpoint and my Saturn/Uranus midpoint and natal Pan. Tbis transit will be in strong effect for the whole time I am schedualed to be there.

The first day Venus was conjunct my Mars and my Saturn/Pluto midpoint; I don't really know how much these transits have in effect, but I still have to say if pressed to the point, when we speak of Horary, that the Sun in the 10th in Aries being the ASC ruler is a good sign I will project with a certain natural charm as well as experience.

Its really helping me with this asthma thing as well; so I assume that the healing due to expressing all that energy that needs to "come out"..

We can only wait and see, the best part is because they have an internet site, eventually when it's over, you can watch it. Last year's stuff was amazing...



Take care!

Sfinxen:)

[AquarianEssence]

Here the emphasis is being well rounded, not stuck on just one style of music, being unique in making the song there own. There are certain artists' work they don't dare to touch as Paula and Simon will let them have it letting them know they are the king or queen and know one can compare. A while back someone did one of those songs and did a good job. They told her she was really brave to attempt that person's work and got away with it. They used the show to raise a lot of money for charity a couple weeks ago. Ford, Coca-Cola and some other's sponcer the show.

My personal favorites don't usually win but they are the ones that make it quickly to the top 10 on the radio so maybe they're better off not going all the way to the end, their loss may be their gain. Chris Daughtery has been in the top 10 for at least a month straight. He was voted out 3 or 4 shows from the end.