Emails-- Good or Bad?

[blueorchids]

Okay boys and girls. So we got through D's birthday with flying colors. Last week's appointment was lovely and with a fabulous bill of clean health (I'm still ALIVE!!!!!!! hahha) He even brought up the gifts again and how much he liked them.

But here is the rub, the email communication between us is really yanking my chain. I just don't know if it's my own natal progressed chart with now a stellium of Cancer planets sitting in my 8th house but I am always feeling vibes off of him, us, the bond. I do not know how people with real water in their natal charts cope.

I asked the HORARY:

How does he view my (past) letters, emails and communication with him?

Are these things an irritant and onerous? or on the flipside lovely and welcomed? ( Now. In my very flaky emotive head I was thinking Are me and my correspondence driving him irritatingly mad or is he secretly happy to hear from me? It is on my mind because we have had an interesting but sometimes quizzical year. When I don't expect to hear from him I do. When I write he sometimes does not even respond. Sometimes he bursts out and then he clams up.

My email and communication are 3rd house ruled by Aries SUN at 28
I am the Moon in Taurus and Mercury in Aries
He is Sag Jupiter (and incidentally, I would have usually ascribed him the SUN as his secondary signficator so it is intriguing that the SUN is my 3rd house ruler of communication).

As the Moon I am exalted in Taurus
As the Sun the email/letters/communication is exalted in Aries
As Sag he is retrograde but in Dignity

He as Sag Jupiter is in the Moon's face, in Saturn's terms but moving back into Mercury's terms
The Moon is in the Moon's Face and Mercury's terms
Mercury is in the Sun's Face and Venus's terms
The Sun is in Venus's face and Saturn's terms

The first thing that I see is that all my signifcators-- Mercury, the Moon and the SUN email/communication are in my 11th house of friendship, hopes and wishes. This tells me we are on track with the horary. This puts this trio in his 5th house which means he probably does not see my communications as irritating and onerous but perhaps fun, lighthearted and maybe I am simply feeling out of sorts. Mercury is trining Jupiter and Saturn. He is actually sitting in his own 12th house!..... Saturn which actually rules his third house of communication is residing in my own 3rd. I take seriously what I send to him and how I communicate with him. And I wonder if this is the push me pull me tightness I am sensing through him. Saturn in Leo retrograde...sunny ego wanted to come out and Saturn, pulling that whip out and going "Down boy wait a second!"

I think the Fact that the sun is so screamingly exalted here is sort of my own issue. Frankly the relationship triggered early on a compulsive writing trigger. I love to write him and when I don't I actually feel a bit grumpy. Yet, I feel uncomfortable when he doesn't get back, I feel stupid and uncomfortable for the fun feisty sunniness charge it gives me and for the feeling that it's too much, too much information, too much contact, too much unbridled enthusiasm on my part.

So Questions and comments

1. Beyond my hope that my residing in his 5th with my entourage of moon, mercury and sun is a good sign what of the Moon's incredible t-square.? A Taurus Moon by nature seems so different from the Aries sun. Just as the sun communicates my emails so well here..the Taurus clicks dead on my mood. My emotional desire to is to be more "conservative and careful" with this despite my love of the art of the letter writing to him. This Moon (feelings/emotions) is in a tight lineup of squares. Is that my tension, confusion, paranoia (LOL). Note the squares to Saturn in my third (his communicator lord) and to Neptune in his third. While the Moon will make trines to Sappho and Eros before going into the next sign, planetarily speaking, we are looking at a square to Neptune. This seems to highlight my concern with our current communication. Since I am not asking a future bond question how shall I read this final stop for my Moon....

2.. and in light of the moon...that stunning fire trine between Mercury/Sun Jupiter and Saturn..what is your read?

[AquarianEssence]

Oh my, it looks like he enjoys them since Sun is 5th from 7th and I think they excite him sexually with Pluto trine, sitting very close to the cusp. But with Jupiter Rx backing off into his 12th, he's secretely glad and perhaps repressing his pleasure. Moon has gone beyond aspect to Jupiter but Mercury is moving in to trine, another pleasure indicator from his 5th. The t-square is just your struggle, I think since Neptune is sextile and Saturn trine Jupiter. They say the answer to squares are trines. Neputune in his 3rd may send mixed signals.

[Amoroso]

Gee, BO, I am sure Aqua's analysis must have depressed you!

Amoroso

PS. Did you see the thread on our surprise meeting over dinner? I put it under BO and Amoroso Meet.

[blueorchids]

Hey Guys,

I am just getting to my writing today. The children have had all sorts of crazy school schedules pre and post holiday and the spring show is coming in two weeks...LOL....

Aqua E, thanks alot for looking at the horary. I know it is mellow and slow around so I am happy and appreciative that you took the time. You said:

Oh my, it looks like he enjoys them since Sun is 5th from 7th and I think they excite him sexually with Pluto trine, sitting very close to the cusp. But with Jupiter Rx backing off into his 12th, he's secretely glad and perhaps repressing his pleasure. Moon has gone beyond aspect to Jupiter but Mercury is moving in to trine, another pleasure indicator from his 5th. The t-square is just your struggle, I think since Neptune is sextile and Saturn trine Jupiter. They say the answer to squares are trines. Neputune in his 3rd may send mixed signals.


Yeah darlin' the stress is largely my own. LOL. I mean this is becoming a true bond and it's in some ways more intense than anyone I could have fashioned and fathomed in my own head.

Because he has never asked me to stop writing, I assumed he was getting some sort of happiness/gratification out of it (oh well LOL.... Pluto gosh I had not contemplated Mr. Pluto...getting involved.). I don't write suggestively (lines people lines!!) but I do write effusively and in a way which indicates my enthusaism and openness. 90% of it is recipes (we both cook), astronomy and nature photographs, and lots of of studio work (asking him what he thinks, opinion etc). I am completely in some ridiculous newborn state of mind with him. The whole "no matter what I say, I know he won't throw me over the bridge" thing ...LOL...Honestly though, I must say what I see when I see him in person is joy though with a now trademark long relentless stare ( He inadvertently walked by the small room where his nurse takes my blood before he and I meet for the actual apointment and he paused, walked back, peered in and peered again smiling. I smiled and then he said "hi" to me. The conversations are always animated and vigorous and spilling everywhere as though to get every second in.

But what I read off the emails is repression and secrecy. The mixed messages Neptune 3rd house is a great call. Jupiter Retrograde 12th house, provocative because you know how Jupiter is on its own -- say in a house 5 situation would be expansive massively ....all over the place with that joy! That he is is retro and 12th. Well that's what I pick up. In his heart maybe because my significators and my correspondence with him are in his house of fun/light-hearted and romance even, he actually has that in his head. I also now see that the MOON rules his 8th house yet sits in his 5th.

Amo,
Hahha no I did not see that before..I will go over there and scribble....