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Post by Kris on Sept 30, 2004 5:48:25 GMT
Dear Kim,
Miracles do happen when all seems lost. First of all I must thank you for those wonderful posts giving insight of my own position. Your suggestions especially the one to look into myself was really the best.
Everytime I am narrating my exprience more than discussing astrologically. You can decipher astrological meaning better than me. Now I come to the point.
Blocking myself for more than 2 weeks did not help. It was more out of anger / frustration than a plan. I thwarted all her attempts to please me, albeit silently. Last Monday, in the bus to reach office, she was tearful hiding them behind sun glasses. That was the only day on which her eyes did not search for me. She was weeping looking for her lost world. I cursed myself. At the office, she went past me waiting to regret if I am guilty. Am I ? I don't know. I could not PURSUE her to stop and listen to me.
A BIG THANKS TO YOU FOR QUOTING Dr.BRENDA. I realized the mistakes. Indeed we were welcoming each other but not pursuing because our connectivity is something difficult to explain. Otherwise, how come we refuse to let go the issue generating heartache for such a long time. It was not that she was refusing to speak but that she has been emotionally blocked with so much of asteriod activity in watery cancer.
I immediately shot a mail to her partially quoting from Brenda and you. I concluded with: "I can not hurt my SOULMATE - THAT IS YOU, whoever I may be for you". I regret if I hurt you.
Thats it. IT WAS WONDERFUL TO WATCH HER THEREAFTER. Whole vocabulary may be insufficient to narrate.
Well, the Saturian test is on it seems. She is missing for the last 3 days due to illness of old aged near relative. I am waiting for her in a greatly relaxed mood. I am back to normal work, food and sleep.
I love to read your astrological explanation for the developments.
THANKS A LOT KIM. YOU ARE BORN TO SUPPORT SPIRITUAL GROWTH OF LOVE.
Kris
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Post by Kris on Sept 30, 2004 5:55:44 GMT
We have not yet started talking to each other.
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Post by Kim Falconer on Sept 30, 2004 23:44:22 GMT
Who was it that said, “It ain’t over till it’s over!” ? I suspect, with transiting Jupiter conjunct your progressed Jupiter, and your Progressed Moon inches away from moving to the zero degree Aries point (see my article on this www.nrg.com.au/~d-falcon/News.htm ) you are going to get some clarity. The progressed moon at 29 Taurus is restless, unstable, about to change. Emotions feel raw, vulnerable, erratic. The shift to Aries will give a blast of forward momentum, a fresh outlook, a fiery, positive approach. It’s going to “clear the air”. Your perseverance and self-reflection are admirable. “One day at a time!”<br> Warmly, Kim
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Post by Kris on Oct 1, 2004 6:16:34 GMT
Dear Kim,
Yes. It is not over. I feel I would NEVER be over in my lifetime. What I meant to say was that "the heaviness in my heart was cleared once I expressed what she was for me. Now ball is in her court and I follow Dr.Brenda's quotation".
During her absence, I sent her few more mails clearing my heart completely. She surfaced yesterday (after my post) and must have read my mails. There was no response from her. WE ARE BACK TO SQUARE ONE.
I believe her Cancer Lillith is taking head-on my Scorpio Venus everytime (very tight square between them) EROS and Moon of both of us are sextile. Can a man make love using Moon alone ? Venus is a must for a man to make love. My 4th house Venus sextile Pluto is acting strong. The tranist asteriod activity in Cancer brought out the passion for each other. With her EROS in Cancer, once she is IN she should refuse to go OUT. Is she IN or OUT ? I am totally confused. With her EROS, Vesta and Lilith in my Ascendant and Psyche in my 12th (all in watery cancer), I dare to say that our feel for each other never dies. Mere presence of each other is good enough to bring out passion. The question is: "Where does it culminate".
I checked my progressed chart (for both 47th and 48th years taking one day per year) worked out using my birth place and time. Moon was far away from 29 Taurus for both the progressed dates 11th Jan & 12th Jan, 1957. Something wrong somewhere. Can U please look into it again.
I hope I am not boring you. Please let me know.
Kris
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Post by Kim Falconer on Oct 1, 2004 23:41:27 GMT
Hello Kris,
I use Matrix software for all my calculations, Tropical Zodiac, Placidus house system.
Your progressed Moon, in this system, is 29 Taurus, 59’, about to change into GEMINI. (before, I mistakenly wrote Aries)
The shift will take the emphasis off of the radical “something’s got to give” feeling of 29 degrees and into a whole new fresh vista, co-ruled by Mercury.
It’s progressed Jupiter that has been on the Zero Degree Aries point.
Progressed Venus at 29 Sagittarius will move, in the next six months, across this same Aries Point, creating a shift from the restless mutable influence to a solid, cardinal one.
What system do you use?
Warmly, Kim
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Post by Kris on Oct 3, 2004 1:00:15 GMT
Dear Kim, I use tropical zodiac, geocentric, placidus system. I use Swissephemeris to get the planet and asteroid positions. I have Matrix software but I don't have C compiler to use it. Where do Matrix and Swissephemeris differ. Do you have any idea ?
regards Kris
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Post by Kim Falconer on Oct 3, 2004 3:56:07 GMT
What is the degree and sign of your progressed Moon and Ascendant by your calculations?
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Post by Kris on Oct 4, 2004 1:44:25 GMT
For 48th year Progressed Ascendant is at 19 LE 19 Progressed Moon is at 02 GE 04
Kris
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Post by Kim Falconer on Oct 4, 2004 23:42:58 GMT
Hi Kris,
Your calculation is only 60 days off. Remember, the progressed moon advances about one degree a month.
As of October 1, 2004, your geo/tropical/placidus Moon is 29 Taurus 59 (2 degree 5’ from your figure of 2 Gemini 4’). Point is, it’s about to change signs.
The computer calculated Ascendant is 19 Leo 12, again, very close to what you have.
I think it is just a matter of precise maths here. Either way, the Ascendant is leaving a ten year stint in the Jupiter decanate (10-20 Leo) and shifting the Aries/Mars decanate (20 degrees of Leo to 30 Leo). That will happen in exact in Sept 05. Your Progressed Moon will be 13 Gemini by then (fast Moon). It is 00 Gemini today. Can you feel the shift to Mercury rulership? The Progressed moon will be in that sign for the next 2.5 years or so. Perhaps it feels as if something has been cleared, seeing as it has just moved off your natal south node at 29 Taurus.
Hope this clarifies things.
Warmly, Kim
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Post by Kris on Oct 7, 2004 6:27:47 GMT
Dear Kim, Here are some fast developments since last monday. In a desparate attempt to clear the cloud I shot her an emotional, spiritual message that did the trick. She lodged a complaint of harassment to the bosses. I was heard unofficially during which I proved that she was not innocent. I showed circumstantial evidence and the first post with your forum. During the hearing, I kept her at high esteem (why ? I don't know) but for the weakness of Lilith. "I am being wooed, ask her to stop it" is the request I left back. All other women collegues are very serious with me since then. I can understand why. Thanks to transit uranus opposing my natal moon. I am not perturbed for THE RELIEF I got after getting her mind is inexplicable. I am totally relaxed.
The hearing was held on 5/10, the day on which transit Juno exactly opposed transit EROS that exactly conjunct her natal EROS. Juno does not like to be illicit. I know it before hand. She was very tense that day fearing backlash. Yesterday (6/10) - transit EROS conjunct cupido - a very happy she; made a special effort to see that I watch her. Today (7/10) also she was looking very happy.
So far so good for her LILITH but for a hitch. She was not happy finding me in normal, relaxed, happy mood. With so much of connectivity in our synastry, I feel another episode is started. I have to protect myself. You wrote elsewhere, "being away for few days can really give us a chance to feel what we miss". I feel "it gives a chance to take corrective measures" as well. I am going on leave tomorrow to spend a fortnight with my family. Let us see what happens. Thanks for your postings on progressed charts. Yes, SOMETHING is cleared. Is that EVERYTHING ? I think she - the Lilith exactly squaring my Venus - does not leave me till I am down with sorrow day-in day-out.
Your comments please. Kris
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Post by Kim Falconer on Oct 8, 2004 1:11:15 GMT
Hello Kris,
I wonder that this energy exchange between you two is getting rather dysfunctional. That she made an official complaint is disturbing. Perhaps that is the only way for her to communicate, though the message seems to be STOP.
I get the feeling time away to reflect and get on with other aspects of your life might be very healthy at this point.
Perhaps that shift of progressed Moon into Gemini is going to give you the insights you need to resolve the internal conflict here.
Best wishes, Kim
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