Post by samina on Nov 10, 2006 17:27:05 GMT
There is one important thing that keeps coming to the surface now - I have always felt that there is somebody missing. Although i have never miscarried or had a termination (did take the morning after pill once) for years i have felt acutely aware that somebody hadn't quite made it here to be with me. This was the loss that i worked hard to reconcile. It feels that maybe i do have the chance to try again. Maybe that missing soul will return.
Does that make sense?
Does that make sense?
Yes, jk -- most definitely! I definitely believe that one's inner being has a place already established established within for these very special familiar relationships, and that is probably what you are sensing.
I had something similar occur around the time that I started a family. Actually, the first time it occurred, I could feel the soul's presence and that it wanted to come through me, but at the time I wasn't with the man I eventually married -- he'd moved overseas & we'd broken up. It seems utterly ludicrous. And I was so young at the time, barely 22. I always conceived of myself as never settling down until I was much, much older.
Within a couple months, tho, my ex came back and we got engaged -- impulsively, and we weren't truly compatible on several key levels, but IT WAS TIME, and I would never have brought my first son into the world if I hadn't taken the step to get married.
Later on, I keenly felt the approach of my 2nd son's conception as well. Thank goddess I trusted these incorporeal promptings, despite a marriage that was struggling. My son are... there aren't enough words to say what they've meant to me! They've helped MASSIVELY to heal & evolve their Saturn-in-5th mother.
Currently, I feel the approach of a socially significant partnership. I've pulled my energy into receptive mode and am not seeking -- I just feel that sense that it is time for this. That's definitely one of the manifestations of this Eros/Juno joint conjunction of my Libra ASC. It's a feeling of readiness for finding that unique shared space in life that is a significant committed relationship.
I've pushed that away from myself most of my life, and have been evolving towards it for years. I feel like I've reached an amazing new place of readiness. It is also heavily influenced by my dancing -- I need to experience the joint adventure of exploring partnership dancing with someone with whom I'm intimate. Which is such a rare thing -- I mean, it narrows the field to a pinpoint, practically! LOL
But destiny is destiny -- if the soul requires something for its evolution & fulfillment, it comes, and only when the time is right. So... whatever. No looking. Just that inner awareness.
The emotion of Eros & Juno on my ASC is very refined and heartfelt, I must say. Lovely.
Samina