Post by Juliet on Apr 19, 2007 11:32:14 GMT
Hi to you all,
A long, long time ago, I cannot even find the post anymore, I mentioned I would have a Progressed New Moon in March of 2007. At that time it seemed it would take ages, but March is already behind us, and here I am, with progressed Moon at 0 deg of Sco, and Sun still wavering at the last deg of Libra.
I am in a new and very real relationship, and I guess the PNM coincided with the realization that I can love ánd still not idealize/idolize.
For the first time. It used to be all or nothing, and my lovers were the most perfect or most gruelling creatures on the face of this earth, and all united in the same person!
Also, I spent the last few years in an idealized view of what a relationship was or should be. Easy when one does not have one.
I love this man, plus I see his human 'faults', I am not infatuated anymore, but my (sexual) feelings are still growing and I just love to be with him. I am grateful he's come into my life.
I guess I've learnt to love and still acknowledge there really is no symbiosis, he sometimes feels like a stranger. Or no, he is no stranger, just a different human being then I am, and he does not always behave according to my precise Virgoean expectations, to the script my Pluto/Sun/Mars stellium in 8 had in mind! What makes this a lot easier to handle is that we communicate very easily with our Mercuries trine. Also, with his Mercury/Sun/Venus conjunction, he is a more peaceful communicator then I am, and if something bothers me, he just asks questions about it. That takes the sting out of my needle. Might be very wrong English this, but I hope you understand!
I also discovered there is still pain left about the way I've let myself be treated in the past, and he helps with that too. I can be overly defensive sometimes and his questions help me feel and see that. When a man says a, I automatically say b, and that is no independence, but slavery.
Learning. Learning what healthy intimacy is.
Our relationship started what for me initially felt like a one night stand, and while he was sleeping downstairs on the couch that first night ( I would not let him share my bed, such a strict person) I dreamt he stood by my side and we were happy together. That is just the way it seems to be turning out!
So this really feels like a new beginning, but maybe I can only tell in about two years or so!
Love, Juliet
A long, long time ago, I cannot even find the post anymore, I mentioned I would have a Progressed New Moon in March of 2007. At that time it seemed it would take ages, but March is already behind us, and here I am, with progressed Moon at 0 deg of Sco, and Sun still wavering at the last deg of Libra.
I am in a new and very real relationship, and I guess the PNM coincided with the realization that I can love ánd still not idealize/idolize.
For the first time. It used to be all or nothing, and my lovers were the most perfect or most gruelling creatures on the face of this earth, and all united in the same person!
Also, I spent the last few years in an idealized view of what a relationship was or should be. Easy when one does not have one.
I love this man, plus I see his human 'faults', I am not infatuated anymore, but my (sexual) feelings are still growing and I just love to be with him. I am grateful he's come into my life.
I guess I've learnt to love and still acknowledge there really is no symbiosis, he sometimes feels like a stranger. Or no, he is no stranger, just a different human being then I am, and he does not always behave according to my precise Virgoean expectations, to the script my Pluto/Sun/Mars stellium in 8 had in mind! What makes this a lot easier to handle is that we communicate very easily with our Mercuries trine. Also, with his Mercury/Sun/Venus conjunction, he is a more peaceful communicator then I am, and if something bothers me, he just asks questions about it. That takes the sting out of my needle. Might be very wrong English this, but I hope you understand!
I also discovered there is still pain left about the way I've let myself be treated in the past, and he helps with that too. I can be overly defensive sometimes and his questions help me feel and see that. When a man says a, I automatically say b, and that is no independence, but slavery.
Learning. Learning what healthy intimacy is.
Our relationship started what for me initially felt like a one night stand, and while he was sleeping downstairs on the couch that first night ( I would not let him share my bed, such a strict person) I dreamt he stood by my side and we were happy together. That is just the way it seems to be turning out!
So this really feels like a new beginning, but maybe I can only tell in about two years or so!
Love, Juliet
Your post was just wonderful to read. I've been thinking about you and your 'new beginnings!' I should find the earlier thread and see what we were speculating about!