Post by ariesmoon on Apr 14, 2010 6:10:56 GMT
I thought I should share these insights which have come to me this morning - still in the dark of the moon (in my natal 12th house).
I became very conscious a few days ago that I wasn't being at all kind to myself. This is something which friends point out regularly but which hadn't sunk in until I caught myself being furiously angry at not being able to find something. I stopped and really thought about it, about how I was berating myself and thought "would you treat a child like this". And I was horrified.
And I realised it was part of a pattern - punishing myself for mistakes, for things I haven't done "right" or "properly" whatever those words mean. I've no idea where this comes from - my parents are loving and gentle people and I don't recall any harsh discipline at all, ever. Perhaps that's why I do it to myself now.
I've found very little on the web about Asteroid Child, but I'm convinced it indicates a place inside us where our inner child resides. And if we can find it, and speak to it, and ask it what it wants and needs, we will find tremendous insights. So I did just that this morning, and sobbed for about 20 minutes. And realised what my inner child wants - nurturing. In the same way that I nurture others. And credit for what she gets right, not condemnation for what she gets wrong.
Asteroid Child in my chart is just a few minutes behind my Cancer sun in the 2nd house, tight conjunct Ceres and Juno. As soon as I saw that in my chart, I saw the image of a child trailing behind a judgmental parent, completely in their shadow, and not able to be seen or heard. Whenever I see children trailing behind parents - particularly if those parents are more concerned with talking to friends or on a mobile phone - I stop and watch the child to make sure no harm comes to them. The fact that Child is behind Sun (father) and Ceres (mother) says everything to me.
All my inner child wants is for light to shine on her - to allow her talents and gifts to be recognised and credited. And not to be criticised constantly for her shortcomings.
A new moon is a new beginning, and this April new Moon in my 12th is a new beginning for me in compassion, understanding and unconditional love for the child inside me.
Look up Asteroid Child in your chart, and see what it says to you about your relationship with the child inside you.
I became very conscious a few days ago that I wasn't being at all kind to myself. This is something which friends point out regularly but which hadn't sunk in until I caught myself being furiously angry at not being able to find something. I stopped and really thought about it, about how I was berating myself and thought "would you treat a child like this". And I was horrified.
And I realised it was part of a pattern - punishing myself for mistakes, for things I haven't done "right" or "properly" whatever those words mean. I've no idea where this comes from - my parents are loving and gentle people and I don't recall any harsh discipline at all, ever. Perhaps that's why I do it to myself now.
I've found very little on the web about Asteroid Child, but I'm convinced it indicates a place inside us where our inner child resides. And if we can find it, and speak to it, and ask it what it wants and needs, we will find tremendous insights. So I did just that this morning, and sobbed for about 20 minutes. And realised what my inner child wants - nurturing. In the same way that I nurture others. And credit for what she gets right, not condemnation for what she gets wrong.
Asteroid Child in my chart is just a few minutes behind my Cancer sun in the 2nd house, tight conjunct Ceres and Juno. As soon as I saw that in my chart, I saw the image of a child trailing behind a judgmental parent, completely in their shadow, and not able to be seen or heard. Whenever I see children trailing behind parents - particularly if those parents are more concerned with talking to friends or on a mobile phone - I stop and watch the child to make sure no harm comes to them. The fact that Child is behind Sun (father) and Ceres (mother) says everything to me.
All my inner child wants is for light to shine on her - to allow her talents and gifts to be recognised and credited. And not to be criticised constantly for her shortcomings.
A new moon is a new beginning, and this April new Moon in my 12th is a new beginning for me in compassion, understanding and unconditional love for the child inside me.
Look up Asteroid Child in your chart, and see what it says to you about your relationship with the child inside you.