Post by ariesmoon on Nov 16, 2009 22:02:51 GMT
... is spoiling for a fight!
Twice today - and many times before, if I admit it - I've got angry about something that's happened, and rehearsed in my head the argument I'm going to have with the person who's done it. And twice I had to think very quickly on my feet to turn the conversation the other way when it was obvious there was nothing to fight about. Quite the opposite in both cases. And I got quite ashamed when I realised how quickly I'd jumped to the wrong conclusion.
At least with it being in my 12th, I get angry in private first, which is probably a good job, given how potent it is!
After a long period of reflection tonight in a candlelit bath (dark of the Moon - thank you for the reminder Kim!) I've concluded that I need to find something for this Mars to DO before I lose it with someone who really doesn't deserve it. It's got to be channelled appropriately, and allowed to be free - I've got to give it permission to come out of the 12th house, not make it feel like it's something which has to be locked away.
In Taurus, it doesn't like doing things very quickly, but it does like doing them thoroughly. It might take me ages to start housework but once I've started, I won't just do an hour, I'll do four, and I won't give up til I've done everything. If I get my teeth into a cause, I don't let go of it.
I'm realising this is a very physical energy - a real push-boulders-up-hill thing. It likes being worked physically hard, something I realised yesterday when I did four hours of housework! My challenge now is to find a physical outlet - martial arts, probably, with Mars conjunct Pallas - as well as my creative one (working with clay to produce very sensual, curvy sculptures).
It's hit me now why I love watching rugby so much. It's such a visceral, physical sport - no prisoners taken - and I love being right on the touchline, right up close. It's because my Mars in Taurus energy is being expressed for me right in front of me. Right down to the mud! It's also why I love my job so much - I'm working in the area of health and social care, helping to ensure that children in a deprived area of my town are given the best possible chance in life. And that energises me and makes me want to fight for them.
Twice today - and many times before, if I admit it - I've got angry about something that's happened, and rehearsed in my head the argument I'm going to have with the person who's done it. And twice I had to think very quickly on my feet to turn the conversation the other way when it was obvious there was nothing to fight about. Quite the opposite in both cases. And I got quite ashamed when I realised how quickly I'd jumped to the wrong conclusion.
At least with it being in my 12th, I get angry in private first, which is probably a good job, given how potent it is!
After a long period of reflection tonight in a candlelit bath (dark of the Moon - thank you for the reminder Kim!) I've concluded that I need to find something for this Mars to DO before I lose it with someone who really doesn't deserve it. It's got to be channelled appropriately, and allowed to be free - I've got to give it permission to come out of the 12th house, not make it feel like it's something which has to be locked away.
In Taurus, it doesn't like doing things very quickly, but it does like doing them thoroughly. It might take me ages to start housework but once I've started, I won't just do an hour, I'll do four, and I won't give up til I've done everything. If I get my teeth into a cause, I don't let go of it.
I'm realising this is a very physical energy - a real push-boulders-up-hill thing. It likes being worked physically hard, something I realised yesterday when I did four hours of housework! My challenge now is to find a physical outlet - martial arts, probably, with Mars conjunct Pallas - as well as my creative one (working with clay to produce very sensual, curvy sculptures).
It's hit me now why I love watching rugby so much. It's such a visceral, physical sport - no prisoners taken - and I love being right on the touchline, right up close. It's because my Mars in Taurus energy is being expressed for me right in front of me. Right down to the mud! It's also why I love my job so much - I'm working in the area of health and social care, helping to ensure that children in a deprived area of my town are given the best possible chance in life. And that energises me and makes me want to fight for them.