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Post by lex on Jun 18, 2009 17:36:27 GMT
Hi! Will write it short! as doing affirmation,visualisation for a time, and then of a weird sudden this dreammate showed up :Dwhen i was in a "darkplace" so far away from that dream as possible..well my saturn had visit my 8 house for years..but around this time...sat was back in H9...and it was under the whole."lovestory"time..and almost the same day it ended..it went back to H8  ...both wanted this to be 4ever...and so many signs in heaven/earth showed it..but cause of our past pain and confusion,missunderstanding,different countrys,other hard choices we had to make..it get lost...4ever?..is the Q?..leaved lot of pain..well in my case anyway...and i´m not sure i want that "dream"back...cause..it was a beauty Neptun illusion..but also very real..we were so close ..and had a great understanding...so the Q is...was it saturns transits..that had to "kill"this love4everfeeling?..casue in my case...this was a one in a lifetime thing...i can hardly imagine..that will show up again..and then be 4ever..or???it felt like my life ended..really lex |
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Post by Juliet on Jun 19, 2009 8:21:10 GMT
Hi Lex, Obviously you are in a lot of pain now... I'm sending you love and strength.
As Kim always says, amp up the self love, that is what Saturn asks of us! Saturn was transiting my 7th house when I met my love and is making a long journey through my 8th now. I am happy, and my love life is good and healthy and happy. I had some BIGGGG lessons to learn in self love, and that was what made all the difference to me. Saturn in 8 in a more practical sense: I had to do something about my debts and I did. I will be debtfree in another 1.5 yrs, and it looked and felt pretty hopeless two years ago. I did not dare speak about it to my bf, and when I did, he gave tons of good advice and support but he did not solve it, I had to step up and be responsible!
We humans often feel we cannot live without the other, whereas we really cannot live without ourselves.
Juliet
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Post by Aries Male on Jun 19, 2009 19:04:42 GMT
Sorry to hear about faded dreams. I'm a musician and sing about stuff like that quite a bit. Have a archive of feeling in that heart vault.
Like these fine lines of a song that I sing.
Seems to be
that there are
more hearts broken in this world
than can be mended
Left attended
What do we do? What do we do
*from "Alone Again Naturally"
Alone again Naturally. I know just how you feel only too well.
My natal saturn conjuncts my natal moon in my Rising Sign at the 14th degree of Sagittarius. While now traversing my 9th house. My progressed Juno is nearing a conjunction my natal Venus but that didnt necessarily bring me love and marriage minded women by the swarm either.
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Post by Kim Falconer on Jun 20, 2009 4:09:06 GMT
Hi Lex,
As Juliet says, this is such an important time to nurture yourself and find things in your life, right now, to appreciate. Is there anything you can do that will make you feel a little bit better? What would make you smile, even in the midst of this breakup? Even though it feels extremely challenging, moving step by step towards more and more peaceful thoughts is the goal.
There is a perfect true love for every single one of us, and it is ourselves. That is the relationship to cultivate, above all others. The more you respect and appreciate yourself, the more you will attract others to do so as well.
Wishing you swift transformation to better thoughts.
Kim
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Post by lex on Jun 20, 2009 9:02:21 GMT
Hi Lex, Obviously you are in a lot of pain now... I'm sending you love and strength. As Kim always says, amp up the self love, that is what Saturn asks of us! Saturn was transiting my 7th house when I met my love and is making a long journey through my 8th now. I am happy, and my love life is good and healthy and happy. I had some BIGGGG lessons to learn in self love, and that was what made all the difference to me. Saturn in 8 in a more practical sense: I had to do something about my debts and I did. I will be debtfree in another 1.5 yrs, and it looked and felt pretty hopeless two years ago. I did not dare speak about it to my bf, and when I did, he gave tons of good advice and support but he did not solve it, I had to step up and be responsible! We humans often feel we cannot live without the other, whereas we really cannot live without ourselves. Juliet Thanx Juliet:)...(i have to tell you all that i´m a learner in astrolgy..so im not that deep into it as you....yet) Someday if im in the mood i will write more of this story..it so "astrology correct" if i could use thoose words. about my pain..i have Venus/Pisces/conj chiron H2...."pain of love"(sentimental extremly romantic) so that is one factor that explain this..i had suicidal thoughts ..from april through mai...but it start to lighten up....and the frustration of this suppressed passion/emotional communication block....was really awful painkilling with also lot of anger..dark thoughts....really bad...i searched for answers almost everyday..in april/mai...and ofcourse i was obsessed with this..PLUTO H8....so there are more truth to this that really are amazing..oki Love&Light Lex |
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Post by lex on Jun 20, 2009 9:16:39 GMT
Sorry to hear about faded dreams. I'm a musician and sing about stuff like that quite a bit. Have a archive of feeling in that heart vault. Like these fine lines of a song that I sing. Seems to be that there are more hearts broken in this world than can be mended Left attended What do we do? What do we do *from "Alone Again Naturally" Alone again Naturally. I know just how you feel only too well. My natal saturn conjuncts my natal moon in my Rising Sign at the 14th degree of Sagittarius. While now traversing my 9th house. My progressed Juno is nearing a conjunction my natal Venus but that didnt necessarily bring me love and marriage minded women by the swarm either. Thanx Aries male....nice lyrics..i´m also a musician(hobby)..play guitar/bass play in band...write(wrote) songs and lyrics..and i have had since my first love when i was six years old....around 5 heartbrakes..BIG..everyone took years to to get over(and then some lighter affairs ofcourse)  ...VEN Opp PLUTO...explains that scenario in my life i guess. But this time i´m not inspired at all...can`t write a word..or a song...I´m just drained/tired/paralyzed....confused...drifting...still somewhere in my heart hoping.....I´m 46 years old..and i don´t want to get trough this anymore..... i´m also Aries.. sagrise  Thanx Lex |
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Post by lex on Jun 20, 2009 9:35:36 GMT
Hi Lex, As Juliet says, this is such an important time to nurture yourself and find things in your life, right now, to appreciate. Is there anything you can do that will make you feel a little bit better? What would make you smile, even in the midst of this breakup? Even though it feels extremely challenging, moving step by step towards more and more peaceful thoughts is the goal. There is a perfect true love for every single one of us, and it is ourselves. That is the relationship to cultivate, above all others. The more you respect and appreciate yourself, the more you will attract others to do so as well. Wishing you swift transformation to better thoughts. Kim Thanx for your true words Kim:) Well i do some meditation.. light a candle every night...listning to spiritual music..so i can relax... i have 3 cats..that shows me love always ;D....so that is great..i have a son 22 years old..my mother still alive 90 years old..i meet them everyday...sisters..friends...so everyday life function as normal....i`ve gone trough this before...so i can handle it better this time....but the worst thing about it ...is the suicidal lthoughts that popped up for 2 months..that i don´t had before..when i was heartbroken....well there is more to this story that i will tell you..later..when i´m in the mood...but...not sure want to dig in this...well see The love for yourself that is most important as you say: I have no problem with myself actually....i´m relaxed..i know my strengts and my limits.....but i think Venus in pisces..is the factor that...make my emotions/feelings/behaviour..in relationships with women....so complex.....it´s like how much i explain and how understanding i am..it still not enough...and ofcourse my moon in libra....makes me indecieve.... but i have learned that i´m sensitive to projections....i take ownership of the other persons pain etc.....my chiron/pisces. so i´m drawned to fall in love(well they usually fell in love with me first) with women that buries lot of pain/suffering....i guess....well there are more layers to explain that in astrolgy..that i`m not an expert in....oki thanx for your responses:) Love&Light tilnext Lex |
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Post by lex on Oct 8, 2009 19:15:03 GMT
strange influense.. i had Mars Trine Neptune 17 September 2009 to 20 September 2009 On Wednesday the 16 of September i was talking to a medium on the phone that confirmed my life situation and the question i had about this "love" then this happened: Thursday/Friday i dreamed of my truelove from 2001-2003, and also about my passion from 1995-97 and at work Friday ....hmmm First: at thursday when i was going trough my drawers i found a silvery letter the same as in the first letter my "love" has...shes having (Mercury Sextile Neptune, long term and it was almost exact during this) I found this on the ground back in January when we had the strongest contact, just some weeks before we met, i put it in the box were her other related stuff was, and did not think about it more, At work .. friday afternoon, when someone thinks of me strongly i can hear a noice in left or right ear this time in left, 10 minutes later i felt a burning scratch on my left inside down arm, when i looked at it the shape was exactly (or near the design the letter i found) as the initial letter of my "love"??..crazy!!!..and also the second letter appeared...crazy!.. Well not only this happened, an hour later when i looked out the basement window ...who was walking by with her bicycle?…"my true love " from 2001-03…haha..crazy! An hour later on the radio that i was listening to in a distant at work, who was on talking for some minutes? my sons mother!!!… my love from 1983-89….  Weird is just an understatement i think!!! The night friday/sat, i dreamed of my "love" for the first time since 18 of april and this time we had an conversation ( i heard her talking), the fragment of the dream was this: She`s standing with a man.... me in front of them, the man walks away.. she sits down she says " the light ...the dark.. you and me". Next scen we are in bed sitting in front of each other Next scene, i`m outside the building high up maybe flying in the dark outside a small window i look in... i see her on her knees in the bed , kissing the pillow..( like she`s missing a man beside her in bed....Me?) Well this is weird coincidences maybe….but can it explain as Neptune ..soulmates?...that Mars forced me to experience in a syncroniced way? weird isnt it? lex |
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...both wanted this to be 4ever...and so many signs in heaven/earth showed it..but cause of our past pain and confusion,missunderstanding,different countrys,other hard choices we had to make..it get lost...4ever?..is the Q?..leaved lot of pain..well in my case anyway...and i´m not sure i want that "dream"back...cause..it was a beauty Neptun illusion..but also very real..we were so close ..and had a great understanding...so the Q is...was it saturns transits..that had to "kill"this love4everfeeling?..casue in my case...this was a one in a lifetime thing...i can hardly imagine..that will show up again..and then be 4ever..or???it felt like my life ended..really 
...VEN Opp PLUTO...explains that scenario in my life i guess.
Weird is just an understatement i think!!!