Beyond strange dream

[blueorchids]

The night before last, I had the most bizarre dream but when I awoke I was less disturbed than curious.

I dreamt that I was sitting with a young, swarthy man whom I did not recognize. He was handsome and relatively young (late 20s). He wanted to kiss me but I was clearly uncomfortable, reluctant even. Each time he leaned in toward me, I began to pull back. At the same time my hands, palms, the wrists and backs revealed cross hatched scars that appeared to be healed yet they would suddenly open up each time he touched me and begin to bleed profusely. I asked him to stop until I could call my mother upstairs and show her my hands.

My mother is actually deceased and was a Catholic convert though not practicing. I am a cradle but recently lapsed Catholic.

This dream was directly preceded by a shorter one in which I was pregnant but I was 47 (I have just turned 46). I had told a few people confidentially but not my husband as I knew he did not want anymore children especially late in life. I was very calm and even a little happy but the dream kept conveying that I was holding the pregnancy secret from my spouse yet determined to have the child. Unlike the first dream I don't recall any other persons in the pregnancy dream. I was holding my stomach (barely showing) and talking to the baby as though we had a secret!

I do not usually remember my dreams and to have two such as these in the same night!

[AquarianEssence]

This is an amazing dream. Of course, each dreamer has her own symbolism but the first thing that came to my mind is the cross hatch lines on the palm. The line of fate crosses the head and heart line. The live line merges and sometimes crosses the heart line. I have a Hebrew letter shin on my left hand at the end of my head line and is partly comprised of my line of fate. It is beneath my Saturn and Jupiter finger. Saturn and Jupiter rule that letter and number.

If the lines open it could represent the opening of head and heart to let fate come in, in some way. Blood is life. Strange, my husband is 12 years my junior, he was 31 when we met and I was 47 when Michael was born. He willed him into being an it was quite an adjustment for me. I already had 6 sons. But it was meant to be.

The male-female aspect could be the subconscious, much older and perhaps wiser in the first dream resisting the direction of the conscious mind and in the 2nd dream, creating in secret without the knowledge of the consious mind.

[blueorchids]

Wow. I loved what you wrote Aqua. To let fate come in. I am so frightened by my life and feelings right now but I am slowly beginning take some chances, attempting to let fate in...

You know I thought stigmata at first and it spooked me abit --then especially since I could never be pregnant because I am in a sexless marriage.

What is provocative are the two dreams as you posit them. Your words really resonate with me, and how amazing to hear of your experience. It was clear in my own dream that I knew the baby was not my husband's but I serenely chose to move on (stroking my stomach)....

[blueorchids]

Thank you Jade. When they come back from holiday maybe I will submit it to the forum. Last night I dreamt someone died but it was not anyone I knew well so I spent the entire early morning between chores and studio work trying to decipher what it was all about and who it was? I had the recall of death but very little recalled visuals.

I finally get to my email late morning and see that my boss from 13 years ago (!!) who suddenly has been emailing me this summer wrote that the young woman who took my position after I resigned and moved out of state died unexpectedly (and mysteriously! )

I have come to believe that my involvement with the board, astrology and my reading is simply helping me to actually recall dreams to see that they do indeed have meaning. Thanks again for the reference!

[blueorchids]

You know Jade I don't know anything about numerology. Back several weeks ago I did imput my data and got:

For D.
Your Life Path is 15/6
Your Expression is 20/2
Your Heart's Desire is 2

For Me
Life Path Number: 15/6
Expression Number: 21/3
Heart's Desire Number: 15/6

I am still reading the reports. ;D That 4+7 =11 doesn't ring a bell. I always look at my natal chart too, but it's rife with 22s (3 or more i think in venus, pof and nn) and some zeros, 21s but that's it.

In my life there have always been 5s/1s/2s permutations.

5112 (first house I owned)/521(my birthday)/512 (5th day of dec, little one's birthday)...

PS--Actually funny about precognition? Some of the few dreams that I have remembered clearly over the years have come true. And I rarely remember dreams that are not vivid. I dreamt of my mother's death which was quite unexpected. She was ill but expected to live and the dream (a month prior) involved her walking down a dark tunnel and not looking back though I was calling her name over and over again. There was light at the end but she looked back only once and then looked forward to the opening. She did not speak.

The other involved my sister in law being pregnant. My brother is 40 and when I asked him back in the spring--he said, laughingly--"God know Blue!! Don't scare the sh--t out of me like that. I don't need to go crazy--I hope we are finished! Three months later his wife calls me to say she is pregnant. (She was very happy as she has always wanted a girl and it is!) The baby is due at the end of next month.

I have only had three dreams about D in 10 years, all within the past year.

One very serene surreal one involved me washing his hair at our kitchen sink. His eyes were closed and he was smiling. Another which I have shared with Jamma involved the two of us on a breathtakingly gorgeous sunny but slightly chilly day planting bulbs in front of a white seaside house. What I remember the most about that was, we kept laughing because he was being very silly and joking. I was laughing very hard.

I always remember how vivid, dark and rich the soil was and our hands were deep in and kept bumping but gently. The soil was very black and very rich. It was cool and soothing to the touch.

[blueorchids]

hahahaha

jade


well yeah baby 11 + 11 =22 . I hope that doesn't mean twins and from another man!!! oh horrors!!! ;D ;D

ROFL :0

[3rdhousenorth]

Blueorchids,

I tend to think pregnancy in a dream is something wanting to be born, not necessarily literally but it could be. Whatever it is, you want it to be born. Sexless marriage makes that procreation (or creativity) impossible, so the virile young man appears. You're reluctant and confused about what to do and want to ask your mother (for approval?). Not sure about the cross hatches - does seem to relate to stigmata if that's what came to your mind, though also could be opening up old wounds of some kind. Very interesting!

3HN

[blueorchids]

yes 3rd house perhaps a birth of a new way of thinking and being !

Jade,

I am like you. My mom thought it was horrible, but I never use gloves. I have to feel the earth. I do like the touch, the feel, the coldness. In that dream, our hands are both cupped, overflowing with bulbs...