Chiron in Pisces

[ariesmoon]

Chiron moving into Pisces imminently, so I'm on the home strait towards my Chiron return in 2 years' time.

I've been thinking a lot about how Chiron manifests in my chart, and have been much drawn to Chiron books lately (some recommendations at the end of this post!)

Chiron has the following aspects:

conjunct Jupiter (2 degree orb)
trine Neptune (0 degree orb)
trine Sun (7 degree orb) and Juno/Ceres (3 degrees)
opposite Pluto (3 degree orb)
square Mercury (3 degree orb)
inconjunct Venus and Saturn (0 degrees both)

So there isn't much it doesn't hit! Chiron is traditionally associated with a wound that we all carry with us, but he equally is a healer so I like to think that Chiron's healing energy radiates out through those aspects into nearly every planet in my chart. Some of those aspects are more challenging than others, and I've had my fair share of pain in love, for example. But through that pain - and some of it has been intense - comes awareness and healing.

Chiron in Pisces is the wound of separation from the divine, and in the 11th manifests (in my case anyway) as a fear of large crowds and a fear of not "fitting in" to a group. I've been conscious of that since I was a child when I hated parties. I still fear large gatherings particularly if I don't know anyone, and will hover on the edges. One rock concert was one too many for me!

The healing side of this placement is that I've been drawn towards small groups (11th) of healers who work with sound and reiki to give healing on a gentle, but at the same time profound and very deep level. Sound healing in particular seems to go straight for the wound - it never fails to bring up more buried issues.

And I've also drawn to me a group of people in my workplace who provide the most extraordinary love and support, both to families who visit us, and to each other. We're also increasingly attracting healers to work with us.

I asked myself a few days ago why I'd attracted so many Piscean/Chironic people and realised that this is my evidence that the Universe is supporting me, that there is a divine purpose here. I had been lost and alone in my previous job, overworking, not supported and frightened every day of the crowds of people on my journey to work. But stuck on a treadmill.

The Universe has now brought me into a place where I'm surrounded by unconditional love and support, and thus the Chiron in Pisces wound is slowly being healed. I can't quite say yet "everything is perfect just as it is" but I'm getting there. I still have doubts - very profound ones - when I see cruelty and suffering on any scale. And I can still feel "out of the loop" even in groups where I know people very well. It may be that that will never quite fade.

With all those Chiron aspects, it's going to be a challenge to integrate these lessons but without a doubt Chiron is intended to play a major role in my life, and I'm meant to be working on this in advance of my Chiron return. And with a Jupiter conjunction, I'm increasingly aware of a teaching and mentoring role that I need to be playing.

For anyone interested in looking at Chiron, can I recommend:

Chiron: The Wisdom of a Deeply Open Heart (Adam Gainsburg)
Chiron: Healing Body & Soul (Martin Lass)
Chiron: Rainbow Bridge (Barbara Hand Clow)

[ariesmoon]

And today I had the wound laid bare for me.
I went to a child's baptism in an Anglican church, and was one of the very few who was not able to take communion. Why? Because I wasn't baptised as a child because of a family argument involving a (now dead) grandmother. I haven't felt the lack before in such a strong way, nor felt the pain of having to say "no thank you" when asked. I'm still trying to figure out whether the pain was of being the odd one out, or whether it's related to the disconnection. So many of the words and prayers felt alien to me, and yet I know the words to the hymns by heart.

The church - which I haven't visited before - has a lovely tradition of sprinkling holy water, using leaves, on the congregation following the baptism, and of asking everyone attending if they wish to make the sign of the cross on baby's head. I felt very blessed when asked to do that.

Chiron in Pisces is a disconnection from the Divine, and in the 11th, that is felt in groups. It was very strong today and it's given much to think about.

[Kim Falconer]

Ariesmoon, Thank you for posting on this event! I have just put a page up on Chiron into Pisces with a brief sign by sign horoscope--suggestions on how to get the most out of this change.

www.falconastrology.com/astro_loa_transits.htm

Already I see from your post, and am hearing from others, the diversity of experiences this shift coincides with. This thread will be a good place to catalog them!

Thank you again. Prefect timing.

More soon!

x Kim

[ana]

Some liberal churches will give communion to the unbaptised. I don't think God would do anything nasty to you if you went up any way do you? Or would one feel wicked for evermore?
My Chiron is in Libra conj Nep and Jup in 5th and when I had the return all that happened was that my oldest son treated the family of 3 to fares to see him perform on the other side of the very wide country -which was a lot of money for him and made us all happy. I found surprisingly little happened before on around on my Chiron issues. I did not know whether to be pleased - or disappointed cos I had no nice data on the Return to think about. Unless of course I was just too thick to notice things. Which is quite possible.............. Now this Chiron will be opp my Juno - well I just began to share a house with a female nurse........? And trine my Venus..... Now to read Kim's notes.
Ah of course C in P is in my Career house. May explaine why I have been feeling unappreciated invisible and unacknowledged by the people who pay me for work I do for them freelance for past 20 years. I even resigned and they did not notice so I carried on. I feel mega taken for granted...........tho I love the work.

Just realised that Chiron in start of Pisces is right on my very ex and daughter's dad's Chiron in Pisces conj Mercury - opp Uranus in last gasp of Leo and Pluto in early Virgo.
As you may imagine the poor love has one hell of a time with nerves and temper tantrums..........it is across his 3/9 axis. To top it off he has Toro in 1 opp Mars in 7 He has a heart of gold but the wrapping is hard going.
But the Chiron issue explains why he was recently banned permanently from social security office for scaring people with his temper [ he is handsome well educated and kind and does drink or drug.] On top of this he also got very angry justifiably when a higher uni course he was just starting was denied him on some technical detail he cannot do anything about. He has had to rethink his whole future. If I tell him it is just Chiron Return stuff he will get more angry...........

[ariesmoon]

its deeper than that ana - I don't feel comfortable with the whole idea of the bread and wine. I can't at the moment make the shift. I may never.

Chiron in Pisces is saying to me - make the shift. Embrace faith - faith in myself, faith that all will be well, and that trying to control everything (Chiron opposite Pluto in Virgo) isn't only counter-productive (something will always get away), but it's also exhausting.

[ana]

Ah of course you must be born the same year as my ex who is much younger than me.......But you do not have the tense aspects falling into the communication house so you do not have such problems.
He has the crowd phobia He used to come with me to parties and I would turn round to speak to him at the door only to find he had left. He also used to leave his little daughter's parties cos he got too tense..............Now he has learned not to try and cope with crowds so he is much more relaxed.

[ariesmoon]

Oh yes the crowd phobia! And yet, paradoxically, I love airports!

I went to see a sound healer today - she knows me well - I'd just been also to an osteopath about sciatic pain. It seems lack of flexibility in my upper back is contributing to lower back problems, as I'm overcompensating. My sound healer said "of course, upper back means the heart chakra area - there's a lack of trust and faith there". We worked on releasing those blocks and opening up. So having mentioned on the forum only this morning about lacking faith, I hear it echoed back to me by someone else!

[ariesmoon]

Lightbulb moment this morning on this. Something I read a few weeks ago has bubbled back up to the surface.

Adam Gainsburg, in "Chiron, the Wisdom of a Deeply Open Heart", talks about Chiron's polarity - its opposite sign and degree, as the key to understanding Chiron's lessons and what we are here to teach. That's paraphrasing and maybe simplifying Adam's message. What he actually says is

"..our Chironic destiny is [Chiron's] Polarity. Its energy draws us out of ourselves, so that we can engage the world to apply, share and practice with the medicine we've made out of our wound. This will happen through healing, teaching, mentoring, disseminating, guiding or initiating others in the areas of life represented by the Polarity's sign and house".

I woke up to a realisation that Chiron's polarity in my chart is something I've been staring at - in another context - for months. I've been trying to rectify a chart for someone with a Virgo moon, and the degree which keeps coming up as the possibility is 11 Virgo. The polarity of my Chiron degree.

The Sabian symbol for 11 Virgo is "A boy moulded in his mother's aspirations for him". Lynda Hill speaks of this degree as having to live up to the expectations of parents or others, of having to confirm to authority's ideals, of allowing someone else to live their unlived life through you. Being directed or shaped against your will. Do you follow in the family's footsteps or do you follow your own path? Do you allow others to shape you or are you true to your own heart?

So my work - the work of Chiron's polarity point - is about speaking from my own heart, knowing my own heart's wisdom and speaking it, even when (particularly when) it challenges the "authority" view of what might be good for me. And, in the 5th house, of teaching and mentoring others to do it. It's particularly in the world of art and creativity that I can see this happening.

Chiron is spoken of as the "rainbow bridge" between Saturn and Uranus. The idea of conforming to society and authority's expectations is no stranger to me with a 10th house Saturn. If I break a rule, or transgress, or challenge authority, it makes me very nervous. And yet that Saturn is in Aquarius, the sign of the rule breaker, the boundary-pusher. It wants to break out, to break rules. But it's scared to, because "authority" might not like it. Uranus, ruling Aquarius, is in my 5th house of creativity, and of expressing the self. So Chiron's message is echoed through those two placements.

By looking at Chiron's polarity point, it becomes clear. In the 11th house the wound is around "fitting in" (or not) in a group. In Pisces, it centres on a loss of faith in the divine, in divine guidance, and in allowing myself to connect with a greater source of love. Its polarity point in the 5th is about being afraid to shine in the house of the Sun by being different and a maverick (Chiron was the ultimate maverick) and being afraid to go beyond what standards of "perfect" (Virgo) behaviour authority expects of me.

If I can have the courage to do that, and moreover to teach that it's "OK" (look at Chiron's symbol!) then I'll be a long way towards embracing Chiron's message in my life.